Here we go.....

[1] Whats your name? Jamie Jem Goh
[2] What word will you use to describe yourself best? ME.
[3] What do you think about yourself? I'm pretty much a narcissist, but I do admit my flaws, know that there are many cons in my attitude that needs taking in hand, but generally, I'm not a bad person! I'm still decent. :D
[4] Do you think Love hurts?If you are at the losing end, definitely. But that's only one side of the story isnt it?
[5] How many exboy/girlfriends do you have? No comments.
[6] How much do you bring when you go shopping? Depends on how long my shopping list is. Actuallly more specifically, how far my allowance can stretch.
[7] What do you think of girls/guys that smokes? It's their life. Just rather amused with those who smoke but cant smoke.
[8] What do you think of 'Third Parties'? Well. I guess if I'm the one directly affected, I'll probably think of them as specimens of creatures.. lower than low.. but then, feelings are feelings right? I guess to me it's only fine if the relationship is already in jeopardy or if the partner is abusive and you are the hero going to the rescue.
[9] How long was your last relationship? Er. Short.
[10] Whats the reason for your break up? Well.. the fault was all mine. Basically, I knew it was a mistake.
[11] What is the one thing you'll do when you're really upset? Talk to myself. And ultimately shrug it off if it's out of my hands. Though sometimes I feel that I'm too harsh on myself.
[12] What's currently on your mind? Huh? Erm.. the questions of this quiz.
[13] What is your favourite number? 8!!!!!! I chose it for my basketball jersey number and I was prepared to fight with anyone who was going to 'zheng' with me.
[14] Why is it your favourite number? Erm.. it's round and curvy, signifies something rather pleasant, not capable of any sharp or cruel? dont you think so? Like the number 1, I think it represents something very steadfast. ok nvm.
[15] Do you club? Yupperz
[16] Why? I like music and some of the beats are really nice to move to.
[17] What do you look for in a Guy/girl? Erm..you know how they say that you like someone just because that someone is someone? but I think there's a little bit of bull in that statement. I mean, if someone catches your attention, and you go out, your chemistry is like... wow! But then after that you send her home, and she kicks a stray cat, and you happen to be a cat lover. The chemistry kinda sizzles after that doesnt it?

OK anyway, I like someone that I can communicate with AKA intelligence, able to hold decent non airhead conversations. I guess loyalty and sensitivity are important attributes too.

but let's not forget the most important thing: That special feeling. Cant describe it though but when you like someone, yea.. THAT feeling.

[18] What are the qualities you think guys/girls MUST have? Decency.
[19] What do you think you're lack of? ha erm I think I need to brush up on social skills, I really dont like to mix around. And that's a little bad is it? What if I turn into some sort of recluse. but then again, I'm happy with who I ahve in my life. Erm, I think i seriously lack discipline too. But hey! I'm trying.
[20] What do you think of this? Well.. like what I always say.. dual advantages... we all get to know ME a little more.

Jem's Babbles

The fragility of literally everything should seek to make this knowledge registered. Everyone knows that nothing lasts forever, yet human nature has almost been created to contradict this, given the unsavoury attitude that is adopted.

Over night, someone out there may have lost his life. And most of the time, this doesnt affect us directly. When we hear of it, typical response is oh man that's so sad. And then we just carry on our lives because the news was of no impact at all. But who can blame us? It's not a question about lack of empathy or sensitivity, or selfishness or pointing fingers at human's flaw.

And this does not only apply to lives. Relationships can break over night, a moment of folly could riddle you with guilt almost forever, a wrong move could lead to a chain of chaos, a mistake resulting in disappointment. Or today could be the last day you can ever talk to your friend face to face before she migrates forever. Or someone could be leaving your life for good for some reason whatsoever.

But the world keeps revolving, and sometimes we all just wish that maybe the world could stop in time, or even better, go back in time. Or just stop revolving altogether. And we wish that the world can share with us our misery. But of course, that does not happen.

But do we really wish for that? Look at the 911 disaster. That definitely left an impression on the world. Affected millions. Even far away continents. But it couldnt touch the core of hurt to those who didnt witness its consequences firsthand.

At the end of the day, the only thing that does not change is that everything changes. And everyone changes. And what can you do. Blame it on everyone else? Or depend on yourself? It is only you who can have control over savouring every moment, or taking everyone else for granted. Or you can be the one who makes an attempt to be a good person, or sneer at the world for being such a shit hole.

Big girls take care of their own shit.

I dont wanna be told to grow up and i dont wanna change
i just wanna have fun........

Fatigue is catching up and taking a toll. All for the sake of that extra bit of spending power. It is effortless to open my mouth and ask for cash, or head off to the nearest atm. But I have conscience and I dont want to spend my mummy's money as though it falls from the tree anymore --- or in this case, coming out of the wall. Hur. OK lame. But sometimes these financial issues do nothing but make me very tired. On the plus side, sense of responsbility and maturity takes a hold, but then it appears that growing up goes hand in hand with weariness.

Conclusion: I need to strike a million dollars. Ok shant be greedy. Five hundred thousand will do.

How on earth does 4D and Toto work anyway? And the odds are like hmm.. let's see. Near impossible right?

Anyway, I am looking for a Nokia 7250. If anyone hears of anyone selling, please let me know yeah?

Let's see, I have a lot of shopping I want to do. Hmm. No not really. I just want to buy my basketball dunks. Oh! BBallers! I saw a pair of Jordans going for $160. Mummy and I need to go shopping soon. *laughs* ok so much for conscience huh? Nah.. will probably half it with her or something.

Ok. I really am being very random right now.

To the girls: ok let's go down on saturday for the chalet thing k?

Jem's Update

My temporary flyer job has been extended to Friday, endorsing Economics tuition, which I must say actually sounds rather effective. Hmm. It's freaking tiring though. Been getting up about 6 every morning, to reach the jcs by 645 but i was late like every single time. surprise surprise. But hey, at least they wont dock my pay. And I dont think they actually check. So at least I turn up for the job -- sense of responisbility might be a tad warped but it's intact. ;p

And Jurong Jc is the furthest jc ever. Imagine travelling from Bishan to Boon Lay on the bus at some unearthly hour.

oh and did I mention the bus that I took this morning was non air con? Plus it was old and rattly. Talk about motion sickness. It was more like motion disease. Terminal.

I didnt take a cab today though. *proud*

Oh and on the bus on the way home, I actually conked off and had a dream! Dreamt that I paid some guy 50cents to take my flyers away. like...????????

I am exhausted.

To the girls:
As what was mentioned in Gwen's blog, yes Sera has booked a chalet for an A3 gathering this weekend, but not sure of the day yet. So yup, let's do try to make an effort to go. I'll message you guys as soon as I get all the details.

A relationship is not a big thing. It is a million little things.

And this does not apply to romantic relationships solely -- it includes all other daily peer involvements that we find ourselves in life. Certain issues that seem so small might actually have more than meets the eye. Size is definitely not equivalent to significance.

Perhaps it's sensitivity, or wariness, or even just being particular. But whatever reason the other party has for what he feels, the most basic thing you can give to a friend or stranger is to make the conscious attempt to view situations from their angle. And sometimes, if we look deep enough, we find a whole new story evolving.


To my VIPs
Dele: Thorns among the roses, but roses among the thorns too. Life does suck, but stop and smell the roses from time to time. It did hurt me when I read everything, and know that if I could feel it, you probably felt it much worse. But do be rest assured that you have this bunch of friends to stand by you, but remember that the first step comes within yourself. be strong and dont break.

Gwen: All I will say to you is that Bishan has many playgrounds. hugz.

What can I say? The rain falls, but the sun shines too. take each day as it comes and face it with a smile. It's not easy. But not impossible.

PROCLAMATION: WATCH TROY.
VERDICT: 5 STAR RATING IS WAY TOO LOW FOR WHAT IT DESERVES.

:) ok obviously I have just watched the show. Caught it today with Maumau and Cher at Bugis today. And it's seriously fantastic. Maumau was gushing over how cute Eric Bana is, and yeah, Orlando Bloom should really just stick to arrows. He looks wayy cooler than with a sword.Go go go watch!

Anyway, I'd like to share this with you cause it's damn hilarious!

Scenario: Jem, Cher and Val were at Cher's place. Jem was singing The Carpenters 'Yesterday once more'

Jem: When I was young I'd listen to the radio....
Just like a long lost friend, all the songs I've known so well..
Every... (pretends to point a microphone to Val for her to continue the song)

Val (with a really blur look on the face) : Body... yeah yeah.. (to the tune of Backstreet Boys)

Wahahahahahhaha ok.. you must know the Carpenters song to get this I suppose but oh Val you were so innocently oblivious and... lost.. hahaha

This happened last Thursday.. but I'm still tickled to this very day. :D

I CUT MY PONY TAIL OFF!

aH.. let's see.. not that I really tied my hair often, only when it got unbearably hot. But the length that was once over my shoulders is like... erm.. let's see, the top of my neck? And my fringe is like till my eyes.. when it was once down my chin.I definitely look less girlish, which is good, but all the same, I wouldnt have minded if my back was a little longer. ok yes yes I am not easily satisfied. can you believe it?? I actually felt a pang when everything was snipped off.

EXAMS ARE OVER!!

Let's continue to pray for divine intervention.

The girls!

Met Mau Gwen and Crys last night accompanied by Cheryl, then headed to uh.. Monks to club with Cheryl's friends. Was so happy to see my friends! Ahhhh you guys are really my closest friends ever. Ok let me just gush over you all for a little while huh?

A little note to:
Yun: Sweetie!! How are you? Seem so busy. poor thing. Nevermind you'll be graduating soon yeah? Any chance of you returning this June??

Mau: Heyyy chio bu! *wink wink* Hmm.. what can I say? Thanks for transporting me around during those late nights! :) And also for appreciating my jokes. *glares at gwen and Crys* :) Looking forward to our date on wed. hurhur.

Crys: Hey! let's go for the vaccine together. Read your blog. So poor thing! Nevermind just put your cream faithfully and dont worry ok? You still look as great as ever.

PS: I shall apply for waitressing job.
The hilarity of me being in that industry line is the urge to see how far I can take. Not to mention self amusement. And who knows? I might really get Employee of the Month.

Jem's Update

It's Cheryl and I 3rd month today. Come everyone please give us a round of applause. *bows* thank you thank you..

;p

Hmm.. tomorrow will be my last paper. Yesterday's paper went alright, divine intervention did happen! I was so relieved. I will not do fantastically but it will be.. alright. Just alright. :)

I need a job. A job with easy hours easy money. Haha. Ok yes yes. Maybe I'll try waitressing. Whaha. service industry. Interaction with people. How cool is that. *subtle sarcasm?* Not my scene huh? I'll probably quit after like... 1 hour. That is, if I dont get into a disagreement with the patrons first. But who knows? Maybe I'll get employee of the month.

Hmm. Now that's a thought.

" you love me.. you love me not... you love me .. you love me not... you love me!"

1. Have you ever thought you were in love? I dont know. Sometimes you get so carried away in the situation that other feelings such as passion or romance makes you think you are in love. And when the moment passes, you tend to look back and realise that it wasnt love at all. oh well.
2. Do you think you're ready for love? I am in love.
3)Do you believe kissing is a way to share feelings or is it just fun? It depends on the intensity of the kiss dont ya think?
4.Have you ever been heartbroken? Yes.
5.If so how long did it last? I guess the pain comes and goes. But hey I am in control man. Big girls take care of their own shit. Haha
6.Have you ever thought you loved someone, but the feelings went away? Yes, sadly, however others say, love comes and goes, cause when it starts to fade, and you aint on that road of re-discovery, the love is in BIG trouble.
7. Have you ever loved someone who didn't feel the same? Hmm love is a pretty strong word isnt it?
8.Are you afraid of being emotionally alone? Er.. hmm.. I suppose so. I do like to need and be needed. ;p
9. Do you want to fall in love? I already am.
10. Have you ever cried over someone you thought you loved? yes.
11. Has anyone ever told you you're too young for love? Ha erm.. no. But then, no one who holds that authority knew that I was loving or loved or in love or whatever.
12. Have you ever wished upon a star for love or for someone? No I usually wish for the same one thing over and over again. ;p But I cant say it now cause then it may not come true right? :)
13. Have you ever been told you broke somebody's heart? Er..er..... no comments.
15. Have you ever wanted someone so bad that without them you were miserable? Er.. momentarily yes. But then, there are other worlds to sing in. Other good stuff around. The world doesnt come to an end!
16. Do you believe you can love someone and be with someone else? wow this is like a question I came across " would you choose the person you love or the person you are with" Hmm.. I dont know. tough tough tough.
17. Do you think love is a feeling that has to be shared by two people or it's not real? I may be cynical or whatever, but love IS a very genuine emotion, the rawest of feelings and the highest level of intimacy 2 poeple can share.
18. Have you ever been told "I Love You" and if so did you feel the same? Huh? If I feel the same, it would be regardless of whether I was told those words.
19. Do you love somebody right now? I think this is the 3rd time I'm saying this! I am in love. whaha.
20. Do you believe that love hurts or do you believe love is pure happiness? I believe there is a balance between the two, with ingredients such as its intensity or even chemistry. It all depends isnt it?
21. Does somebody love you right now? *smiles* well.. someone who can put up with my nonsense for 3 months.. I guess so huh?
22. Do you believe this quote: "Love begins with a smile increases with a kiss and ends with a tear"? nah.. Love is a different experience for everyone.
23. Are you single/taken? You guys should know by now.

2 papers down. And my heart went down with it.

Although I know I probably do deserve it. *sheepish*
I shall start praying for divine intervention. It seems like I only turn to Him when I need something. Gee. *looks to the floor*

Oh Lord Please please please please please please please please please please please please grant me a miracle. I promise to be a better student. Please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please.Please please please please please please please please please please please.

Another episode of classic Jem moments

Scenario:Billy Bombers
Jem to China Apple ( friend): How many days to you work?
China apple: I get 3 days leave.
Jem: Oh! So you only work 3 days?

Cheryl and China Apple look at each other.
China Apple: 7 minus 3 is 4.

Cher: I dont want a girlfriend who cannot count.
Jem points to remaining one chicken wing on the plate.

Jem: ok fine I shall have the last 2 chicken wings. Hurhur.

Cheryl didnt get it at first. She thinks: Wow she really cant count. THEN she finally gets that I was making a joke. And she goes hysterical.

Cher: Hey that was original.
Jem: No it's crispy.

Oh my Jem you are so funny.

hur. Okay I am so overwhelmed with self amusement now.

Cher: Maybe God will read your prayer, and then read your joke, and will be so tickled that He'll give you what I want.

Conference MSn with Val and Cheryl

Scene: val and Cher are discussing some job advertisement they saw in the papers about ice creams.

Val: what do i do when i call?
Cher: be sure to ask them what ice cream and all.
Cherl: when we can start work
(interrupting)
Jemsayswhatever says: WHAT NOT TO ASK
1. Do I get free ice creams?
2. do my friends get discounts?
3. can i have a taste of ur product now?
4, (and if u actually do taste it) Yucks! This sucks. I think I shld take over the processing.
5. say to him ' hey.. how long have you been working here? cause your hair sure looks ilike ice cream'
6. tell him... 'hey.. i think you missed a spot while shaving. there's cream on ur chin'
7. never wipe it of for him and say ' oooh! yummy.. it's actually vanilla.....'

Cheryl and Val blatantly ignores me.

Jem: WAHAHA ok this is so shameless but i acutally liked the vanilla one! whahhaa
Jem: Oh I really do laugh by myself. And at my own jokes.

Cheryl and Val continues to feign ignorance.

Jem: haha oh man i feel like blogging abt it!!!

Extract from Cheryl and Jem's conversation
Cher: darling
Cher: you can be so funny you know.about the ice cream i mean
Cher: shall record it in classic jem moments.

*smirks* ok so I edited some extracts that werent too complimetary to my jokes. But hey face it guys! you love ir right?

*sings* oh.. I am so in love with.. ME...

IT'S HA-HA TIME!
there was this nus graduate. he couldnt find a job cause thee e conomy was very poor. so out of desperation he applied for a job in e zoo.the zoo told him, 'you have to dress like amonkey and pretend ure a monkey. we will advertise you as a clever monkey imported recently to increase the no. of visitors.then they proceede to tell him the rules. one of them was that his antics must not include the crocodile enclosure next to him cause thr was a very fearsome crocodile there.

so this nus graduate... he acted very well and everyone was very impressed. then one day... when he was jumping from tree to tree.. he fell into the corcodile pond!!!!!then the fearsome crocodile started swimmin towards him. and he was panicking! he was like.. omg.. i am so going to die..then the croc swam closer and opened its jaws and the crowds were also almost peeing in their pants.

then the nus graduate suddenly heard a whisper.. 'dont be afraid my friend. i am from ntu.

*sniggers*

Jem's Update

My exams are next week. Enough said. oooh.. I've got a headache. *ouch* Please pray for me.

Raine! heya..I went to download it at your recommendation! And it's sweet.. and so happy sounding. Thanks! I posted the lyrics up cause I think all the couples can sing this together. It's something that I always complain about to Cheryl ha. It sucks to go home separately after having such a nice day together. Anyway, everything's ok on my side! Glad to know you're alright, yes big girls take care of their own shit huh? :D But hey, do let me know if you ever need to talk or anythg k? And remember! Keep your chin up. grinz

Wouldnt It Be nice- The Beach Boys
Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

OH and for those interested in playing this song on guitar, the this is the link
http://www.fretplay.com/tabs/b/beach_boys/wouldnt_it_be_nice-crd.shtml

Faults are thick where love is thin. -British proverb

Man is swift in judgement, preoccupied with others wrong doings, harsh in criticism, but painfully slow in giving.

Perhaps typing out the above sentence is an irony in itself. But note that the above does not serve for cynicism, nor scornful of Man's faults --though undeniably, they are often made unwittingly-- but aims mainly for awareness and cultivation of virtues and goodness.

In our world, I like to believe that there is no situation where there are absolute areas of black and white, for each overlaps the other to form both misty and bold shades of grey. Yet most are quick to leap into the seemingly defined areas without giving much thought to many possibilites that have arisen, but may not be easily seen to the eye. I have learnt that when it comes to human feelings, the capacity and ranges have no limitations, boundaries are only set in because of both self and conventional principles. Yet, everyone is unequivalent in this sense too.

And sometimes, we just want to believe in something because then we remain in the stable world, and agreeing with what is outside the norm throws us into another dimension of unstability all over again, and therefore being the former is easier. I dont know about you, but I guess I'd rather be second rated me than a first rate imitation.

So how then do we balance these sets of complications? I guess there is no solution, except to stand in others' shoes, and view it from another perspective. And maybe we should use a little heart too. Remember, when you point your finger accusingly at someone else, you have three fingers pointing at yourself.

You only see what your eyes want to see..
how can life be what you want it to be..
you're frozen... when your heart's not open..

I have made a vow to abstain from alcohol for a long time. no wait. make that an eminently, exceedingly (you get the point) long time.

I was struggling to keep control and maintain a certain level of alertness or awareness of my surroundings, and for a long time I suceeded, and only faltered towards the end. ( so Zen, you must give me some credit for that! hur.)

I can hold my alcohol.(The past is a different story. ) I guess malnutrition plus too strong and too many drinks and in zen's words, just broke me. Gee. Cheryl was in the same boat, so basically, we couldnt really take care of each other. Both of us puking everywhere... disgusting!!!! haha I think the amusing part was when we were fighting for her dustbin when we were back in her room.

But now, I have a major hangover.

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon i will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend

When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

Dedication

This is to: Sureen my dajie, maumau my chiobu, dele my singer who never fails to mesmerize me, Crys my cheeky cute girl, Louey my panicky aqua lover, gwen my bishan buddy whom I can always turn to, Yun my precious sweetie.
You guys are MY VIPs.

Also going out to:
Jo my buddy who listens to my ranting, Kos my always will be one-in-a-million, Audrey Ralph my other buddy who makes school so much easier to go to, Joey my brungder!, Ah Zi my bubbly bubble (hurhur) Zen Zen Zarn my long time friend,
Jonathan my cousin study man!~, Raine my pal and glad we're getting to know each other better! Deb my hmm... special xiaomeimei? haha how are you???

And lastly to Cheryl. I love you.

Also to everyone else that I left out by mistake. These are just the people who came to mind right now. That doesnt mean any of you are less important or whatsoever!

The hand that rocks the cradle ..Is the hand that rules the world.
W. R. Wallace

Happy Mothers' Day to all mothers and future mothers.

I love my MUM!

And everytime I try to fly, I fall ,Without my wings, I feel so small ...

Jem Is...

1. A Procrastinator. I'm the sort who wonders where time has flown to yet knowing the anwer already. I put off lots of things which I know should be done and run away from what is important.

2.Defiant. How others view me isnt important. I'll just continue to lift my nose and shrug them off.

3. Stubborn. No means no. If I want it this way, it shall be this way.

4. Anti- social. I have come to the conclusion that I do not like interaction with strangers. It takes time for me to warm up to people, and they have to make the initial move. So I'm not sociable, but hey I'm friendly. I just need to warm up.

5. Not Typical. Those who know me, you should know what is the most basic most not- typical-ness in me huh. but besides having that kind of orientation, dunno. Sometimes my logic is weird, and the way I think differs so much from other people/ But at least I can then say I am an individual. And hey, at least I do think.

Sigh. These arent very bad things to be are they?

Shrug. But ultimately I love myself. And I dont really care how you view me.

i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me

Random Ruminating

Running through my head...
Thoughts about life, about people, about my life, about my people. A lot of mental energy needed. And therefore I am exhausted. Because I think too much. And then I look into the mirror, and I see a tired Me looking back. And then I start feeling lousier, cause I feel that so many things are all my fault, and when I try to examine the whole picture, it seems like the source of it just lies with me.

To those concerned. I'm sorry.

And then there are all those many worries of mine. Of studies.. of..... a lot of things. Sometimes I feel so old and weary.

I fall asleep after many tossings and turnings, yet the temporary bliss of sleeping is often interrupted, either by rapid eye movements called nightmares, or just simply awakening for no reason at all.

I am desperate for undisturbed sleep.

please calm my restless night....

It is time to get a grip. And detach myself from all these useless ramblings.

I shall think and worry no more. I've often prided myself on being the sort where I am always in control, and not let anything get me down.

And I still am very in control of myself.

You can take a girl out of IJ but you cant take the IJ out of a girl.
Those were the days...

1.What stupid things have u done when u're in school?oh.. gee.. plenty.. let's see.. skipping the vice principal's class to sneak out and buy jelly, got caught (duh it was the VP's class, my silliness then amazes me) and suspended. Gambling in the school canteen.. suspension with the girls.. but those were the greatest times!! Remember guys.. the MR Loh ( lau tou zi) .. the blue ladder.. the watering.. the studying.. the locking ourselves up..haha remember MR James with hair growing out of his ears? .. the climbing out of the window.. *wistful smile*

2.What subject did u like? Hmm.. Maths. English.

3.What do u hate most? Accounts.. ( I got a bloody F9 for Os! ) Art(lower sec).. I cant draw... I must have been demoralised in pri sch.. I used to get Ds and Es in lower pri.. I mean..geee! I was a kid.. how can you give me such grades... whether I deserve it or not is another matter.. see.. I bet it's thier fault for brainwashing me.

4.Ever had a crush with the teacher? haha yes.. PEOPLE!! Remember MS NG HUIYIN? She was the source of my passing tests and doing homework. Too bad she was a relief if not I might be Math genius right now under her excellent tutoring. *nods*

5.Any killer teacher? Er.. killer as in hot? Or killer as in.. murder? Haha. Hmm.. I would say Jo Teo of course.. who causes a stampede with her appearance.. haha she wasnt bad though. just... intimidating. and big.

6.ever cheat during exams? Nahz... I just failed them.

7.What did u enjoy the most? The girls! Haha as in,, you know. My friends. Not literally girls. Ha. oh maybe literally girls. LOL. kidding. But the people I met are one of a kind! :D

8.Ever smoke in school? nahz.. I dont smoke. I am a good girl. * nods fervently.*

9.Any achievement during school?Er...... I dunno. Does discipline record count? Haha okok I know. I was vice captain for Table -tennis. haha * beams*

10.If u could turn back time to ur School? Dunno... Relieve all those great moments all over again and soaking in every damn minute!

:D

Jem's Incoherent Ramblings. Please Excuse.
Life is...

"You laugh because I'm different, I laugh because you're all the same"
This applies to all who differs from social norms. Being part of a group offers the sense of security that everyone needs at some point in time,but being an individual is the most outstanding quality one can ever possess.You were born an original, don't die a copy."

"Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest of these are 'What might have been?'."
There's this saying, 'on the road of what ifs, all travellers are unhappy.' And I guess all sayings are there for a reason. So everyone, seize your opportunities because you may never get the same chance again. Life is too short for any room for regret.

But then, you realise that most people who say this are those who have been through their series of what might have beens and what ifs and lost chances, and let's face it, the majority do not learn from others' mistakes. They learn from their own.

Never expect, and you'll never get hurt."
Most definitely easier said than done. And one of my weak points too.

"The less we look with our eyes, the more we will see with our hearts."
That's faith. And we all need a lot of that.

...... I think I need some time to get my perspectives in check, and reshuffle my priorities. This has a danger of running way out of hand. And I'm letting it. I should stop. Or should I?
Focus jem focus! SSSS TTTT UUUU DDDDD YYYY . That should and shall be the only word in my mind. Yeah. Right. Yes. really. Oh whatever.

"The things you should do are often the ones you do not want to do but must do."

Someone said this to me once before. In just this single sentence, it brings forth the message of commitment and responsibilities very strongly, and many times, we feel the temptation to do an act but yet we are stopped by obligations, regardless of whether we have made the choice to be chained to it.

Temptation occurs almost everyday. Some say it takes discipline to overcome it, and others say it is sheer willpower. In a relationship, it is an almost unspoken thing that it is love which kills the temptation.

Discipline, willpower and love? Is that all it takes? It sounds so easy, and these anwers just simply look like theoratical solutions to me, the first things to jump to everyone's mind when the question of fighting temptation is put across to them.
We are also taught that temptation is bad, or maybe more explicitly, giving in to the fight of temptation, or horror of all horrors, not fighting at all.

But why is temptation evil? Is it because you hurt yourself in the process? When you give in to the temptation to study instead of play? Or is it because you hurt someone else in the process? When you stray, even when you're in a relationship.

These seem like such easy and obvious outcomes. But is it really?

'Tis one thing to be tempted, another thing to fall. -- Shakespeare. Is it that wrong to fall?

Then we have to debate the fine line of right vs wrong. Sigh.

But like what I said to someone once (along the lines anyway) " It was so wrong, every aspect and every angle pointed to WRONG. Yet, somehow it doesnt matter cause it seemed so right. "

And then I realised. When it comes to feelings, it is the epitomy of Complex.

Jem's Update
Ok.. actually I did a previous entry telling everyone that I cant go online cause my internet connection was facing problems. But somehow my genius brother managed to fix it ( I suspect he didnt do much haha ) but yeah~! It's working now!

So.. here 's my little update
Friday: Went to watch beautiful boxer. Go catch it! It's great to have a controversial issue spoken from the voice of who is usually the victim. met Zen and Joey after that for some so-called work at Chinablack, some database thigny. It was quite...hmm.. I dont know. I was in the washroom, and there was this girl that was wailing at the sink. And when she saw me, she wailed even louder! Her friend told me her gf just broke up with her so maybe the sight of me made her feel worse. That was so.... ok...

Met Raine at Chinablack! Heyyyyyy :) It was really great seeing you yeah? :D

Today: Cheryl and I took our first sort-of holiday at JB! It was my first time.. haha even though I've driven through several times before. I finally found a white denim jacket! The kind that I was whining and looking for all over Singapore.

It's studying day tomorrow. Sigh.

PS: Maumau and Gwen! You guys still up for the holiday? I dont care we MUST go. Ha. I'm going Tioman.. told you guys already right? Anyway here are the details. It's 4 days 3 nights. Total cost $208/-