let the pictures do the talking. all my lovely lovely people.

as you can see, i had the BEST birthday ever. on 28th itself, my parents cooked me yummylicious dinner. my secret friend jen actually got me tickets to the f1 finals can you believe it? but most unfortunately, i had to turn it down because my parents went through so much trouble preparing all the food. *sign of maturity* haha yl, cousin, bro and i played mahjong where we all lost spectacularly to yl :0

but anyway, the pictures of the really memorable night. kiss kiss all of u! :D :D

i feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

i dont know if you can read the words, but it says 'drink more water and get enough sleep. eat more fruits. apply hand and face cream.'

haha yes mummy.

that was surprise no. 1.

surprise no.2 involved an elaborate collaboration between my groups of friends, assisted by 2 excellent coordinators. ( kellyn and jo kiss kiss )

eh... yacht leh!!

*grins from ear to ear *

must have cost a pretty penny for an evening out and sea so thank you thank you if i get married i will remember this and give you bigger ang baos. hahahahhaa

the dragon, my secret friend took me to the yacht club on the pretext of having dinner.

dinner was actually a bbq when the boat was anchored at hantu island!

janice.... ur food is delicious man. your fish, your pork and your chicken wings! and nick for transporting everything and helping us get forks, drinks, chair...

louey thank you for your efforts in your chilli and non chilli chicken wings too! :)

my vips.

dele it was a good chat when we were sailing back home. remember what i said ok! go go go!

maumau u look good as jack sparrow !

haha gwennie i think u had to go off work early too right! ( thanks dele too )

and su with her camera which i only still know as require light and can move. haha

fel for battling the jam to rush over. it's ok u must watch ur blood pressure.

michieeeeee ! and the yummy cake. from shangri la!

( must hao lian a bit heheh )

and deb! song zhong.. dont worry i am not pantang . haha

a really huge thank you for all that made so much effort and came to share it with me. i feel really blessed to have friends like you all. *hug hug wipes tears from eyes*

pictures of thie lovely breezy evening will be up soon when my friends upload it on facebook and i steal it.

:)

i realised now that we are usually too quick to dismiss people as over dramatic, or roll our eyes when others go hysterical in theatrics.
but of course the disclaimer is that some people are just drama queens au naturale. heh.

but sometimes, people react the way they do because of the uncontrollable emotionally charged adrenaline rushing through the body. heating up the body and numbing the sensible side of us.
and emerges a persona we never knew existed until it is forced out of us, to the extent that after it is all over you are amazed it actually happened.

of course, alcohol fuelled is usually a factor.

addiction is so hard to kick, even it makes you sick. that's the problem with vices. that's the reason why we cant quit smoking, or reduce the amount of alcohol drunk. because you are so aware of the consequences but when the sun comes out you conveniently forget to bring your umbrella because you take it for granted that just because there are no dark clouds in sight doesnt mean a thunderstorm isnt lurking somewhere round the corner.

some activities are meant to be a social gathering, a way of fun.

i sure have not been having lots of fun lately.

sometimes the ones you expect support from let you down really badly.

for some, it can be downplayed to plain jealousy.

but for others, they just dont believe you have it in you.

it's been an eventful weekend.

i just want to close my eyes and wish it all away.
i ache in every bone in my body.

every now and then, i get reminded of how much i dislike alcohol. but like all vices, we all get drawn to them often because we forget the reasons why it is called a vice.

because it's only fun when it lasts.

the amount consumed over consecutive days. i wish hangovers are the only prices to pay.

i think i am too uptight.

wait, i am too uptight.

so i'm just going to be all smiles and heck all the negativity!

suddenly i'm in love with the world again and i like everyone once more.

i have so many things i would like to say to you to you. i would like very much to be scathing and point out the pitiful state of your existence and you really should do something to change it.
but i will not, because i know now i have as much fault in it as you did.

and although i may come across feeling like the greatest fool ever, i gained something so much more heartfelt, but you lost everything. and i would like to say sucks to you and do childish things like stick out my tongue at you even though i know you would roll your eyes to heaven at me, but what you should do is roll your eyes to heaven and ask for divine intervention.

a friendship, a relationship, you threw it all away. i nearly did too.
but what a sad thing you have done. really.

you could have turned your life around, and you could actually have some sincerity around you for once, but you turned your back on it, and blamed everyone else for its failure.

i was so angry once, but now i feel so foolish. but then i look at her and we laugh together, and suddenly i am grateful for all that has happened to lead us to where we are now.
and the saddest part is, you could have been part of it.

and to the other you, i think you are also living in your own world.

i think i minced my words nicely. there were plenty of foul language itching to come out. after all, i am the confrontational kind. but let's minimise the sarcasm, and let's play nice.
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phew. got that all out at last. too bad i cant mention names. ;)