man, i am so excited for tonight.

because i presume that i shall be suffering from an extended hangover, thank you to all who are making an appearance and making this birthday truly worthwhile.

and to those who make an effort to even drop by, wow! a kiss on the cheek for u. ahahahhahaa

thank you k. i love you.

we walk through life, and we meet people.

it's destiny.

maybe it's e idealistic streak in me.

but well, there is an answer for everything. and sometimes just because it isnt given to us, doesnt mean there is no explanation.

every so often, you'll meet someone who touched you in a way no one ever did.
you'll also meet someone whom you wish you never met.
you'll meet the one whom you think of every so often.
you meet the one you wnat to spend the rest of your life with.

these people serve a purpose for u.

but for them, maybe your existence in their life may not necessarily match your purpose for them.

ok so this is cynicism talking. but its hard core reality too.

my brother has kindly given me his fujitsu laptop because i was complaining all through dinner about my crashed computer.
and after a lot of setting up and configuration and technical difficulties, its all up and running!

HRC last night as usual. so much for all that talk about a termination of clubbing. well looks like talk really is empty and cheap.
no drunk people last night, just a couple of highs and spouting rubbish people.
and ah beng dancing in the house too. :)

michele! great to see you man.

this week will mark two very important events.

1. my results! although mine has been delayed cause i procrastinated on my registration fees. the rest have gotton theirs and everyone did well. strangely, im so numb to it. whatever may be may be, you know, que sera sera and all that.

2. my birthday!! hahahahahaha enough said about its importance. oops.

you know, every once in a while its good to reflect. life is about how you treat yourself, and the people around you, family, loved ones, friends, acquaintances and strangers.

circumstances can pull two people together.
but at the end of the day,sometimes your actions are the ones that pull each other apart.

it's highly crucial to think about consequences, and try in ways to show how loved the person is. and when you see the happiness it brings, only then life becomes meaningful, and suddenly you can move mountains and do whatever because wow love does the best things.

dont wait till u drive the person away.

in life, we are very lucky at some things, and unlucky in others. fortunate or unfortunate sometimes depends on higher power, but some things do fall within your realm of control.

sometimes you get a second chance, whether deserving or not.

but dont allow it to reach a point where even a second chance is needed.

and sometimes, people do you great wrong.
but maybe sometimes, we were the ones who drove the person away.

but one thing please remember, it isnt always about faults when something goes wrong.

its about looking together to put things right again.

it's amazing how a little thing can turn things around for you. it may be a mere conversation, its presence, or just a mere thought.
the antidote to balming and soothing wounds licked open lies in that little thing, and when it happens, you hold on to that moment for dear life.
that, is the art of treasuring.

we never ever really examine our actions, before we begin to accuse others. we are never ever really in the wrong. i guess human nature is built as such, a defence mechanism against hurting ourselves, although we realise that sometimes one doesnt have to protect our prides that much.

it may be raging storm, but one can get reluctant to return to shelter, despite all signs pointing to it. because sometimes your comfort does not lie in not getting caught in the rain, but love you draw from within is your warmth.
and then you know that it doesnt matter, because it's not time to go.

i'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm all alone.

sunshine after the rain? im gonna build a damn rainbow too.

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just to inform you guys, my computer is down, therefore any emails i receive will not be read immediately till i go over to k's house, so anything urgent, sms me!

the worst part of being in a nightmare isnt one which you cant wake up from, but one which you created yourself.
one careless move and you bear mountains of consequences.
you screw up once, and sometimes you pay for the rest of your life.

because at times, the things you lost arent the things you can afford to lose.
you destroyed all the important elements, and you cause your own downfall.

most heartbreakingly, you lose the one who you love with all your heart.

and every single minute, you wish fervently you can turn back, so that everything will be alright and you can see that smile once more.

i ruined everything. every single thing that mattered so much has been taken away from me. and i deserve it.

i am sorry.
to you, to me, to us.

yet, despite it all, you gave me another chance.

the words you said, the hugs and the kisses. that moment, will always be etched in my memory.
because it is now that i have caught a glimpse of life without you, and i saw that the road ahead was lonely and empty.
the relief, the pain, the happiness, the amazement... i swore in that moment i will never hurt you.

i lost everything. or rather, i carelessly threw it all away.
yet, you picked it up, and gave them back to me.

you didnt give up on me...

i think HRC plus alcohol emits immaturity and fuels recklessness.

alright, i wave the white flag.

let's revert to the more pleasant lifestyle, albeit less exciting.
its time for us to hit the bars and sip cocktails, and listen to jazz.

sometimes, we must seek revelations, instead of awaiting the answers to fall upon us.
only then can we realise, and understand what really caters to us.

anyway, randoms aside. check this out!




audrey, jem and jo.
a few weeks back, i got bored of my fringe. and thus, during a lunch hour one day, audrey and i made rash decisions to chop it off. hence
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i look like wood stock.

but i like!







the prawn with salted egg yolk , is one of the best dishes at crystal jade.
ok i know i should have taken a picture of the dish but uh, judge it by our happy faces.











our virgin cell group gathering. gwen looks like a cheshire cat.










I'm a few days late in blogging, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my bestest Louey!
i am so envious of that girl. she decided she wanted a holiday and flew to Perth to visit the other 2. grr cant wait for Dec.

anyway Louey, thanks for all the encouragement. you're the most loyal friend i know! gosh.
you're my one of a kind.
hugz..

we'll have ur celebration when ure back.

and so they said, no alcohol tonight. but as we all know, talk is cheap.
thank goodness i stayed on my feet this time to appreciate the music.
although there are certain parts of the night that seem missing in my memory. again!
and also a few that i look back and am going 'omg'

was just evaluating the last couple of weeks. cant exactly put my finger to it but it appears that life has been a bit too exciting. late nights, some fuelled by alcohol or a natural high, needs some discipline instilled!
i guess the word to describe it is fun.

the playing, ( and i dont mean player kind of playing but children kind of playing) , plus the company just made life a little more enjoyable.

im going to get my cybershot repaired later. like finally!
it's nice when you can capture certain pictures.

sometimes you get warnings and signals not to trod down a particular path but you ignore them anyway.
and sometimes you realise, that familiarity does not equate to chemistry.
it's comfortable, it's nice, but the spark has vanished.
but then one likes to counter and debate against it, searching for tons of excuses, because one has already misunderstood.
how easy it is to get carried away.
and at the end of the day, that's all it is. a huge misunderstanding.

sometimes you get blown away from a blast from the past. and you get swept up with everything, nothing seems clear anymore.

all it takes, is a little meditation, so that in the midst of all the confusion, you dont lose sight of who you really are.

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so it's another saturday night.
last saturday was crazy.
c.r.a.z.y.
my whole world turned topsy turvy for that night literally and metaphorically.
so this time round, let's stay away from the alcohol.