Random Ruminating

Running through my head...
Thoughts about life, about people, about my life, about my people. A lot of mental energy needed. And therefore I am exhausted. Because I think too much. And then I look into the mirror, and I see a tired Me looking back. And then I start feeling lousier, cause I feel that so many things are all my fault, and when I try to examine the whole picture, it seems like the source of it just lies with me.

To those concerned. I'm sorry.

And then there are all those many worries of mine. Of studies.. of..... a lot of things. Sometimes I feel so old and weary.

I fall asleep after many tossings and turnings, yet the temporary bliss of sleeping is often interrupted, either by rapid eye movements called nightmares, or just simply awakening for no reason at all.

I am desperate for undisturbed sleep.

please calm my restless night....

It is time to get a grip. And detach myself from all these useless ramblings.

I shall think and worry no more. I've often prided myself on being the sort where I am always in control, and not let anything get me down.

And I still am very in control of myself.