Dear Lord,
be good to me...
The sea is so wide
and my boat is so small
Irish Fisherman's Prayer

As far as I am concerned, when your boat meets troubles, you either sink, or you swim. If you choose to sink, for goodness, sink alone. People can try to save you or pull you up, but if that doesnt work for you, dont drag them down. If you choose to swim, your friends will be the anchor that you need.
Doesnt it make sense? You have to help yourself first before anyone helps you right?

Ah well.... not in a very good mood now....guess my fever is making me even less tolerant than usual.. which brings me to the subject of ME. ha.. shall take a leaf from Jo's book and analzye myself.

The Old Jem
Hmm.. Super sensitive, erm.. mr gentleman.. ahha.. very very soft.. even softer than jelly.. whatever you want I will give.. give too much.. too giving.. sorry just trying to emphasize a point.. think too much.. worry too much.. keeps quiet.. gets angry but doesnt say.. keeps everything inside.. yes.. trying to emphasize another point.. hmm.. cares too much.. puts in 200% in relationships.. puts others' feelings before mine.. too dependant? erm.. let's see... well basically, just too good to be true. haha.

Now
Erm.. still sensitive.. just not super.. still mr gentleman.. hey I still wont let girls walk on the side where the cars are! whaha.. not soft.. quite hard actually.. but a little soft to some? let's say.. erm.. a banana? haha.. whatever you want... i will not give unless I shuang.. not very giving anymore... thinks a little.. worries a little.. depends.. still keep quiet... still get angry but wont say... maybe complain... heck care...very very heck care.. .. why worry or get upset or sad over things that you cant control? ... not in a relationship .. not planning to get into one for a long long time.. need to have some fun huh? totally independent.. dont need anyone.. but hey.. if I fall in love.. I'll prob revert back to the old Jem. ha.. who knows huh?

ME VS THE WORLD
Hey boys, Hey girls, Hey anybody who will listen to me
In case you havent noticed its just me against the world today
I fell out of the wrong side of the bed and landed in the worst mood
The stupid alarm clock screaming at me from across the room
I'm trying to be nice im trying ot be reasonable but its oh so hard when i dont wanna be
If youre looking for that nice girl from the day before dont bother she dont live here anymore
Cause its me against the world (oh what a stupid day)
Yea its me against the world (just stay out of my way)
and in case you havent noticed and in case you havent heard its just me against the world
And the world is winning

No energy.....

Jem's Update
Last night's reunion dinner was alright, shall not elaborate but want to say a huge thank you to yun and her mummy for preparing everything for us. It really is very appreciated...
Rollerbladed to yun's place.. big mistake, the pavement was so slippery I practically had to crawl, either that or I rollerbladed on the main road which was kinda dangerous... and it was drizzling slightly, which probably made me feel more sick than I already did. ha.. sorry guys.. I didnt want to really say how I felt cause didnt want to spoil anything?? So only told you guys I was sick when I reached home.. I know I was quite quiet and stoned.. so unlike me.. but yeah...
Didnt go to school today.. Cldnt move.. but decided to give tuition early.. nearly died during tuition though.. I ended it about 15 minutes earlier..then took a cab home.. when normally I would walk home...
OK.. gonna crash now.. or in Jo's words... K.O....

A Lawyer is a person who manipulates by the use of language. Lord Atkin

County laws and statuttes give us guides to the law, but ultimately, whether justice is carried out remains in the hands of judges and lawyers. So if you get into legal trouble, seek a top notch lawyer who has the ability to play around with English, and walk off scot free. Quite sad isnt it? Well, for the victims, yes.
In Singapore, people say that lawyers are all 'one-kind'. Hmm.. admittedly there is a certain shredness about them, but that would just be generalizing isnt it? Well, when Jo, Ralph and I become lawyers, you can find out for yourselves.

I make a good friend, but a very lousy girlfriend.

Yes, I am not Mr. gentleman or Mr nice anymore, date me or see me only if you are prepared to have that mutual understanding that if anything happens it only happens for the moment itself, and I am not obliged in any way to answer for any of my actions. It is a little sad, that the change is so significant that people notice it. But in my defence, softness equates to vulnerable, and I am gonna wear a shield. If I love you or like you enough, then that's a different story...
A friend told me that last night.. the words above highlighted in bold. Although there was a lot of truth in it, it still did make me feel a certain sadness about myself, which typically I shrugged it off as usual. So many things have happened, and I just dont know how to respond to people anymore. I do not want to commit, do not want responsibilities, all in all, I am just not prepared to love anyone else. The only people right now that I will rush and do anything for are my very good friends...
I have not lost myself, I still know who I am. I just dont want to get hurt anymore. That's why I'm like that. I will care, I'm not totally heck care, even if I portray it, I'm just heck care when it comes to being a girlfriend. So.. hmm.. who knows who I'll fall in love with.
Ah, hell.

Still reeling from the aftermath of last night.. but in a good way..

Jem's Update
Hmm..let's see.. Chinablack was freaking crowded yesterday.. and even after all the queueing, we still didnt manage to get in. BUT the wait was worth it.. cause I saw a certain guy.. ahah yes GUY! One of the rare moments where you see me speechless.. hahhaa met some other old friends as well.. plus new friends...Veron... Michelle chow. haha oh and I saw HL! yeap.. hl milk.. she practically ran when she first saw me and after that we were so..hmm.. awkward with each other. But whatever man. I'm just remembering all the good people I saw... esp THAT particular encounter.. haha JO and RALPH! Now I have something to talk to him about in school! haha ok ok this is hopeless. grinz grinz. Haha okok

So after that, we headed down ( we as in, Dylan, his friend, louey, deborah, michelle loke plus gf, cheryl and I) headed down to MS Cheeky Monkeys to meet Lenny. The music was gooood.. and overall last evening was a blast!! Too bad Louey had to go off early.. Nevermind Louey next round!! There's another party on the 15th March k??Ha

They say it never rains but it pours, but admist the clouds, and behind the shadows, a light lurks just beyond, but not out of reach. How cliche.

But how wonderfully true.

Yet, you realise that the people saying this says it only after they have survived the crisis, and not during the storm itself. We get too immersed in our troubles, and get drenched in our tears to stop, and have no energy or heart to remember cliches such as these. Yet, who can blame them? Everyone is entitled to self-pity, self denial, rage directed to everyone and anyone, there is simply just no room to brush our agonies and groans of and smile cheesily and declare that oh it's such a sunny day outside.

let's see. How many are there out there? Behind a curse there is a blessing. When one door shuts, another opens. Uh.. plus many many more.

So I guess the only real help these words give us are to ourselves, each individual's relation. After all, when you've been through it once, we tend to avoid making the same mistakes. Tend to anyway, no guarantee. And to others, hmm.. perhaps they are just to create awareness. And in a way that helps too.

But I still think the strongest action is just listening. Listening to others and to yourself. Listen, mind you not hear. And at least the person in pain knows that she isnt through this alone.

Jem's Update
Skived off tuition today... feel so irresponsible, but I was really tired.. no make that exhausted. So no point right?
Looking forward to chinablack chinablack chinablack. Maybe I'll see someone there. *laughs* And no Cheryl I am NOT hung up.Haha

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL

The rule says, forget everything. But I am a rebel. And though everything tells me not to, I still want to say..........

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discoer the core strength within you that survives all hurt. Max Lerner

Who you are today is the outcome of your circumstances, your results, your mistakes and your achievements. Feel proud of yourself, dont feel inferior.. And remember there's always a chance for everyone out there.
Came across this song today, but could not find it the html to post it on my blog. here's the lyrics anyway. Everyone should relate to it, it really strikes a chord in every individual.

Song: Mistakes I made
It really is a miracle that I have come this far.
Without a hope without a prayer without a guiding star.
In spite of my nativity and many dreams betrayed,
I know I would not be here now
but for Mistakes I Made

But for Mistakes I Made
Who knows who I might be
Some other heart some other soul
Some other destiny
But for the times I took a wrong turn unafraid
I might have missed it all
But for Mistakes I Made

So many times I've tried to change things out of my control.
The jealousy and all the rage that swallowed me up whole.
The years that I spent loving those who did not feel the same.
The times I didn't trust myself with only me to blame.

But for Mistakes I Made
Who knows where I might be
Some other place some other time
Some other destiny
But for the times I took a wrong turn unafraid
I might have missed it all
But for Mistakes I Made

These things have taught me what is real
How to laugh how to cry how to love without regret
and when to say hello..or goodbye
I know whatever comes my way my dues have all been paid.
For you would not be in my life, but for Mistakes I Made

But for Mistakes I Made
Who knows who I might be
Some other heart some other soul
Some other destiny
But for the times I took a wrong turn unafraid
I might have missed it all
But for Mistakes I Made
I might have missed it all
But for Mistakes I Made


Jem's Update
hmm.. Today was pretty alright.. I wore a skirt! Yeah.. a damn skirt.. although when I reached my uncle's place I changed into berms like after...hmm.. 10 mins? Still...
Just returned from basketball, that means it's not really that compulsory for me to work out today since I already did right? Right.
Looked through all the pictures in my blog today... Hmm...

I can be the one to sing your blues away...

Other people may be there to help us, teach us, guide us along our path. But the lesson to be learned is always ours.Melody Beattie

Almost everything sounds simple in theory, but never in execution. LIke my carpenter analogy that some of you may be familiar with (;p), others can supply you all the materials, the nails the hammer etc, but ultimately, it's up to you to begin and complete your construction. I always believed in independence, though previously I never followed what I preach. Trouble is, now, I am too independent. And they always so too much of something can kill you. But I'd rather be too independent than too dependant, for there is only a certain extent to which you can mould your future, and what if one day, you wake up all alone? Well, the point is, I can complain to others, whine, sulk, but never to the extent where it becomes too extreme. Because others have their own lives to lead too. It's fine to need people, but you cannot depend wholly on them.

I look at you and I cant seem to tear my gaze away...

One love, many likes, multiple crushes?

Went to NUS to sit in for a sociology lecture dealing with sexuality issues, and watched a very interesting and entertaining video clip about homosexualities amongst animals. Haha.. I learnt that the ape family is one of the most promiscuous animals and do not practise monogamy at all, and I figured that since we derived from apes, maybe it offers a lame excuse to infidelity? ha.. oh well you never know. Not that I'm condoning it. ...I do believe in faithfulness, the conventional and traditional one-woman man and one man woman, although admittedly I did stray before (bows head) but... I dont know, I guess yes, we should never hurt the one we love, but things do happen. Flings and affairs? Which is more condemned? Both? But well.. yes, once again, things happen. But I feel that no matter what situation you find yourself in, you should do your best to work it out, and try not to hurt the ones closest to you. You can make a mistake, but you cannot make the same mistake over and over again.

Jem's Update
Celebrated Sureen dajie's birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN 14 MINS TIME!! :)
Anyway the pictures are up.

I just completed 25 sit-ups, 20 crunches and 10 push ups. Wow, I am sticking at it. Haha
*pats stomach* (note: not tummy, but stomach)

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.
Storm Jameson

What is the difference between contentedness and happiness? Which should we seek for? I dont know which category I fall into right now, but I know that perhaps I am bordering in between the two. Which is good enough. We are always so dissatisfied with our lives, this issue doesnt work out the way it should, or you dont get what you desire. Sulk if you want, but ultimately, we have to learn to make the most of things isnt it? And that doesnt mean happiness, it's just acceptance that life is such, and acceptance doesnt mean happiness. But perhaps when you accept, you lower your expectations,and it's a stepping stone. Dont seek happiness, it will find your way to you. And it will come. Just open your eyes.

Jem's Update
I have serious issues. I wanted to do 30 sit-ups and 20 crunches, but ended up doing the other way around. And I suffered through it. I am so ashamed. I've got flabs, I'm abstaining from drinking, really. Arg. And I resolve to do 50 whichever every night. really.
Hmm.. went walking with Jo after school today. haha.. went to check out our bicycles, walked from bugis to selegie then to city hall then to suntec.. but walking creates abs right? So let's walk more Jo! Haha. And more swimming. (haha) And let's go to the gym. Ok, I am ambitious.

Everybody dance to my song! ha..oh btw,
anyone up for Chinablack this Saturday?
$15
Hip hop and R&B. Let me know yeah?

Imperfections blot our lives, but there are moments of simple bliss, just like today. a lazy Sunday afternoon.

I had a weird dream yesterday, or more specifially, its contents dealth with the typical nightmare, which untypically did not scare the shit out of me. Interestingly, I was planning an escape from the situation I was caught in. Hmm, maybe there is some kinda hazy significance. Ok nevermind, not making much sense here.

I really am not able to summon the sort of readiness to be concerned about other halfs or relationships, and this indifference and apathy, is just met by an enjoyment of my current independent status. I always said that if I were a guy, I'd be a jerk. And this is re-emphasized all over again, only now the dotted line of gender differences is becoming to be a faint line. Damn. Ok yes I am speaking in between the lines as usual and not making any sense. Again.

Someone asked me to admit something that I have always denied. And I still deny it. It is just a memory, nothing more.
I'm not hung up, not at all. Admittedly, maybe a bit. OK, maybe a big bit. But shrugz. I really do not care.

Excuse me, I just need a little ranting about random thoughts and blabber incoherently. It's a good way of organising your thoughts. Ironic, I know.

Ah, what the hell.

There are no knights in shining armours to take you away on a white horse, nor are there any princesses or princes. But there is such a thing as happily ever after.

There is no such thing as love
This notion put forward by my law lecturer comes about as startlingly true, yet wages against the fairy tales that we have grown up with. He claims that love is simply infatution, with a limited time period, and the only thing that is forever is care.

Perhaps perhaps perhaps
And I am once more at the crossroads. I guess this love issue has been the subject of great debate, but perhaps love is really a concept that we have been wired into believing, something romantic and mystical that provides a form of escape from our mundane lives. Yet again, there is something magical about feelings.

Perhaps love is everything.
Because it encompasses loyalty, responsibility and duty. Perhaps that's why they say that love overrides everything. Well if you look at it this angle, it reigns true.
So what's the most important thing in the world? Love? If you equate love to happiness, then perhaps it is.
I guess it all depends on each individual interpretation. Just like how some people believe in love at first sight. Maybe us cynics do not believe cause we were never in their shoes to experience what they felt.
But love is ..well.. love. For all its controversy, love is never a bad thing. It's a great thing. So once again, why try to understand it? Just simply enjoy it.Give and take. It'll do all of us good. There's enough goodness to go around, if each of us share a little more.

Jem's Further Rubbish

Sometimes, when you read too much into something and try to analyze it, the beauty of it vanishes.
It is like listening to a songbird. Why try to figure out the notes? Just enjoy it.
The best things in life do not have a reason.
Why did it happen? Because there was magic in the air at that moment in time.

Even greater rubbish. If you were in my situation, what would you do?

I was on the MRT this evening, sitting comfortably, when a lady boarded the train. A lady, mind you, and it was not an old one either. I glanced at her, and that glance changed to an increasing dismal look. Cause I realised that she had this bulge around her belly which signified that she could be pregnant. But then, she can just be having a tummy. So then, I was caught in a dilemma.
Choice 1: Should I give up my seat assuming she're pregnant, and give her the much needed seat while with the possiblilty of incurring the wrath of a lady if she was not pregnant, and insult her pride?
Choice 2: Continue to sit, I was reallllly tired. and just take it for granted that she's just fat.
Well, in the end, I chose the first, deciding that pregancy cant be gambled with. I mean, if she was really pregnant, and the train jerked or something, I might have prevented a tragedy. right? BUT before I could stand, a really old lady came on, and obviously in need to rest her poor lacerated feet. And sad to say, no one else, and I meant NO ONE, offered either ladies the seat.
I was faced with yet another dilemma. Which one?
In the end, I caught the old lady's eye, and gestured to her to take the seat, while throwing guilty glances at the other one. Well I figured that since she could stand through all my deliberation, she can stand a little while more huh? The old lady reallllly needed one.. (?) hhha ah well..
Ok so guys, if you were me, what would you have done?

The greatest rubbish
My rashes are coming back. I dont know what the hell I am allergic too. Arg.
I have a big festering pimple on my right cheek. and I DO NOT have pimples on my cheek! Arg.
I have a massive break out everywhere else
My abs are gone. I have a tummy! I am fat. No more drinking. PZ! NO MORE!! haha

I need a thorough workout. *grits teeth*

A story for all.
The Mountain Story
A son and his father were walking on the mountains.
Suddenly, his son falls, hurts himself and screams: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"
To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the mountain:
"AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"
Curious, he yells: "Who are you?"
He receives the answer: "Who are you?"
Angered at the response, he screams: "Coward!"
He receives the answer: "Coward!"
He looks to his father and asks: "What's going on?"
The father smiles and says: "My son, pay attention."
And then he screams to the mountain: "I admire you!"
The voice answers: "I admire you!"
Again the man screams: "You are a champion!"
The voice answers: "You are a champion!"
The boy is surprised, but does not understand.
Then the father explains: "People call this ECHO, but really this is LIFE.
It gives you back everything you say or do.
Our life is simply a reflection of our actions.
If you want more love in the world, create more love in your heart.
If you want more competence in your team, improve your competence.
This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life;
Life will give you back everything you have given to it."
YOUR LIFE IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT'S A REFLECTION OF YOU!
Author Unknown

At the end of the day, our actions will be returned to us.
You can be stoic, unemotional, detached, to protect yourself. But if it is at the expense of your loved ones, you dont really have a protection at all.
I guess we all have a long way in becoming better people but we'll walk together.

oh what a super long entry.

BIG T-SHIRT......BUT IT'S SMALL..

Jem's Rubbish

Sometimes you know that people are out of your league and do not benefit you, yet...

You know that it's over.

You know that that part of your life is just... simply a little piece of your jigsaw.

This is normal. To seek people that somehow arouses your interest yet you know it wont do you much good. Your sense of reason and logic comes in, tells you to get a life, but how do you stop thinking, or how do you stop feeling?

You wonder how that person is, you yearn to call and ask tt person how she is, you want to tell her you still care. You want her to know she's being thought of, you still remember. But you know you will never call her anymore. But hope she knows that even in silence you are still around.

You try to forget, try to distract, tell yourself that you should not be feeling all this at all. And you truly mean it. I mean.. hello!! It is so obvious even to you that this whole thing is just plain..... dumb. yeah.. tt's the word. Dumb.

It's not as though the person is that important anyway isnt it?. And you truly mean it too. But then there's this nagging doubt asking you how you define importance? When you are so damn bloody concern about her welfare. And then you feel even dumb-er. which kinda makes you feel a little worse.

You tell yourself you arent taking any tangible action, you're just letting things be, yet, there is action in the form of remembering and relieving.

And then you smile, a bittersweet smile, a sad smile, but still a smile.,and knowing that that person still makes you smile, makes you smile even more.

And then you want to laugh at how ridiculous it all seems, even to you, especially to you.

And then this whole bizarre cycle begins all over again.

I know it's 2.30 in the morning, and I am rambling?

Yet I do it anyway.

Did I mention I am crazy?

Maybe I am..... crazy over.. whatever I am rambling about.

Oh whatever.

The above is simply scattered thoughts of Jem. Whoever that reads this, do not read too much about it. I'm just thinking about something, and the person in reference may not be connected to anyone that is directly related to me, but in general.

Just completed the book The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks and here's my critical review of it. ;p
My initial impression of it was the usual style of Nicholas Sparks, where he is more inclined towards the genre of sweet romance, but this book, surprisingly came with an element of thriller. I would have to say that his attempt was fairly sucessful, though of course not on the scale of Stephen King perhaps but nonetheless, (maybe I am just a coward) it did make me glance around uneasily and seek normalcy from time to time. The Guardian however, true to typical Nicholas Sparks succeeds in moist eyes and the tug at heartstrings. Not bad, really not bad. Those interested to borrow, you have my number.

I shall strive to be a better student.

My examination fees are huge, they cost over a thousand dollars for only 4 papers, and my mum has to bear the brunt of it.. that's one of the big drawbacks about studying in a private school. And what makes it worse is that my laid-back attitude is preventing my potential to reach its peak(as always), I take too many things for granted.. oh no, I think I am over-ridden with guilt. Sometimes, the petty problems that I worry over make me so ashamed when I compare it to what my mum has to go through, after all, responsibilities for 2 children is no easy feat. So, from this week starting, I really shall do my very best as a student, skipping classes shall be at its most minimal and only when necessary, and I have to instill the discipline to at least do my bloody homework instead of glossing over it or pretending that I wasnt given any, or imagined I did it. Ahhhhhhh..

I bought 2 books today!
1. Nicholas Sparks 'The guradian'
2. Manju Kupar ' A married woman'. This story speaks about a married woman who falls in love with a younger girl and has to face her choices and confusions! Sounds interesting right? Alright Jo you'll be the next to read it!

Prayer of Gratitude and Guidance
Dear God,
I wish to thank you for granting my 30 day prayer, life has turned around so much, that contentedness is not something that is momentary anymore. Thank you thank you thank you!
Please guide me in being a better student, let my voice of conscience scream at me when I start to slack, and stir me up to do what I am striving to do.
Give me strength to keep my promise.

Love, Jamie

The harder we struggle, the tighter the knots. We should relax, and let peace be our antidote to the poison of fear which consumes us internally, to the depths beyond physical description.

"I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary.. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease. It begins in your mind, always. One moment you are feeling calm, self-possessed, happy. Then fear, disguised in the garb of mild mannered doubt, slips into your mind like a spy. Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. But disbelief is a poorly armed soldier. Doubt does away with it with little trouble. You become anxious. Reason comes in to do battle for you..... reason is laid low. You feel yourself weakening, wavering. Your anxiety becomes dread."

Fear, real fear, shakes you to your foundation, usch as you feel when you are brought face to face with your mortal end, nestles in your memory like gangrene: it seeks to rot everything, even the words which speak of it. So you must fight hard to express it. because if you dont, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you enver truly fought the opponent that defeated you.
Extract from Life of Pi by Yann Martel

Hey guys, the pictures from Christmas and Yun's birthday are up!

"Peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart. That is the real meaning of peace."
Search for the peace within yourself and work towards it. It is the best gift you can give your soul.

Blindness
Is when we close our eyes to to miracles.
Incompletion
Is giving up the fight halfway.
Hatred
Is when we do not open our hearts to love
Pessimistic
Is when we are afraid.

These 4 are only a minute portion of the flaws in humanity, yet its relation to us is far from foreign, though on varied scales. It crosses my mind frequently the reasons of my actions, the basis of my thoughts, the rationalization for my words, and they all seem so justified, or maybe they are just well-grounded excuses.

I care so much about someone,yet shrug my shoulders off someone else. My tolerance level for many are sky high, yet zilch patience for others. I spoke before about the circle of balance, and my questionable extremity has found its share in unfounded judgement by critics, yet full acceptance by others without reasoning. Some matters are best when they are obscure, I do not feel I have an obligation to explain anything. And that is the best part. To have no chains tied on you.

Jem's Update
Been shifting my furniture around and cleaning my room. Though it's only half done, it looks wayy much neater than original. Haha. And I feel like a strong Cinderella. Maybe I should change my name to Hercu-jem-erella.

It is not easy to be me. You need to be a genius.

Alright, I have fixed my blog, that means I can view this page without any problem! Woo Jem is a genius. Ok ok credit should go to Micorsoft who guided me through changing my prozy settings but ah well. Haha ok I'm just very excited that I do not have to switch to any other host server.

Just returned home from Yun's 20th birthday party!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!I think you look so sweet in the dress we got, the girls have got good taste. :) Hope you had fun. :) Cant wait for the pictures to be up so we can all carry out our friendster deal! *nudges those who went* Haha ok private joke which will soon be not private anymore.

And Kos, you have inspired me to give my room a thorough cleaning.

PROBLEM.
Everytime I try to log into my blog, I get redirected to blogger.com

REASON
out-of-date cached DNS information, either on your computer or your ISP's
name servers.

SOLUTION
please contact your ISP and ask them to refresh their Name Server caches.

OK.. so I have the theoratical solution. Problem is, I need someone to apply it for me because I do not understand computer jargon. So, all you computer experts out there, please contact me!! And ask your friends for me too. Thanks a million.

ok wait... I managed to figure out what the above means, cleared my cache, updated my DNS information, but problem still persists. Haiz. Contacted blogger again. Hopefully they'll give me something more substantial. Wish me luck guys. Oh yeah, and to my friends, if you post a notice or what on your blogs, please remember that I cant read it and contact me personally ok? See ya thurs you guys cant wait.

It's just so surreal, and it's so difficult to represent the prefect irrationality of it.
The taste still lingers... and I savour every inch.

Changes
They say nothing lasts forever, I beg to differ, for what about memories? But even memories fade with time, save for the ones closest to our hearts. But we cannot live in our past, therefore, this being out of our control, we have to face the changes in our lives.
Many times, as we experience change, such as losing a loved one through death or otherwise, or lose your job, the gravity of the situation seems too much for us to endure. Yet we know that escapism is only a temporary solution and only serves for the problem to confront us again. Changes can be painful, but as doubtful as it may appear at times, everything happens for a purpose. It is your actions that will determine the outcome. Changes teach us the true meaning for strength. Be strong always, and always remember to appreciate the little things. And know that at times, it is not your fault, and no matter how much effort you put in, some things will never change back. The wind blows hard, but when it subsides, the leaves still fall.

Jem's Update
Mon Jan 3rd marked the first day of school at the new campus which surpassed all my expectations.. we have a pantry and guess what? A massage room! Yea! It's this room with about ten massage chairs? And the whole school is air-conditioned and just has that classy atmosphere. Definitely enjoyable.
I received my results today too. Shall not elaborate. Hah.
Met Peizhen, Lenny, Manling and Kos this evening for dinner and chilling out. Cant wait to see you guys next Tues! So this is becoming some weekly tradition huh?Ha.. but this evening was really fun. all of us being shameless, despite the fact that I was sick and coughing.. haha thanks you guys! --urs truly, mr salesman.

Yes, I am sick. Ahh.. *croaks* And here I am blogging at this time of the night instead of getting rest but ah well, cant get to sleep. I need a personal nurse. Those interested please take a queue number. ok.. getting shameless again.

I cant imagine a home without laughter, a world so devoid of humour that there's never a chuckle or laugh. I'm with Scaramouch- the world's mad, and having a sense of humour is the only way to get through it. The laughter in our home is its heartbeat. It's the fuel for wawrmth we share and the switch for the light we shine. laughter leads us, kneads us, and sometimes helps bleed us of torment and woes.- BOb Talbert

They say that laughter is the best medicine. But sometimes, this aid isnt readily available, especially when you are in that dark corridor and laughing would seem almost unnatural. But we have to triumph over gloom and beat the blues, so loosen up, shake, and just try to smile a little. :D

Anyway, here's a little corny joke, hopefully to plant a smile on everyone reading this.
Cannibal 1 and 2 were eating a clown. Cannibal 1 said to 2, " Does this taste funny to you?"
haha.. ahem... grinz I bet everyone is going so lame and ready to kill me or something but heyyyy admit it, it is quite funny!! haha remember what I said about loosening up?? *smirks*
ps: and I still think it's funny.

Libra. (Extracts from the email courtesy of Sue and val)
1. nice smooth skin and good figure.Spents much effort to keep the skin clean and prettyhaha hmm former, no comments. latter, not really...
2.She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. Same as above. Although with the recently acquired tattoo at the prominet place that statement has a more reigning truth!
3.Flirtatious I am NOT flirtatious. haha or rather, No comments. haha..
4. In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once a while give you a smile also. woo hoo.. lawyer in the making? ha plus nice lawyer! what more can my client or opposition ask for?
5.She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good side and a bad side.well, I admit that I am fickle, but at least I acknowledge the very important concept of 'there's 2 sides to a coin'! So this way, I become unbias and non-judgemental. that's good!
6. If you ask her for help or advice, she will help you except if she does not like your guts. Oh! that's a little sad.. haa but kinda hilarious actually? I am picky.. see if I 'kan your face shuang'!
7. Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never forget to let you know how much she cares for you. I definitely care for those around me.
8.if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games. Survival of the fittest........haha yup, I dont fear anyone or anything. except flying insects.

WOO HOO! I GOT MY TATTOO!! EVERYBODY JOIN ME IN A ROUND OF CHEERS AND SCREAMMMM ALONG WITH ME!
haha.. ok I sound a little insane.. but it's just that I do like my new tattoo! haha It's my name.. JAMIE~ ! How narcissitic huh? But hey I love myself, and I'm not about to carve anything on myself that does not have any relation to me. HA..THANK YOU Candy, louey, joey and audrey for accompanying me!
Ok I realise I sound very jolly now.. hah excuse me manz! Going off to admire it.. hahaha oopz. ;p

On a more reflective note
Really. Time is really an instrument in the cultivation of peace, for those troubles which caused us much discomposure and heartache, seemingly endless at its peak, fades away from smog, to haze, and gradually the air clears to show the sun.
But along with time, attitude is the main catalyst in our learning ,whether or not our lessons of strength comes from external sources, but as I reaffirm, it is within us that we sow the seeds of our innate sturdy substance, and learn from mistakes and experience, and become a stronger person altogether.

I am happy. I really am. I have learnt that most of the times, the matters that revolve around my mind all the time are not doing me any good at all, and I should just cease worrying and learn not to sweat the small stuff. Not expecting anything from anybody or anything, and learning how to just appreciate little things are the ones that are going to keep this happiness alive.
Praise God.

Sing the blues away... You are the artist and you are in control of your palette, make the most of the bright colours that have been given to you.

Life Still Has A Meaning

If there is a future there is time for mending-
Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.


Life is never hopeless however great your sorrow-
If you're looking forward to a new tomorrow.


If there is time for wishing then there is time for hoping-
When through doubt and darkness you are blindly groping.


Though the heart be heavy and hurt you may be feeling-
If there is time for praying there is time for healing.

So if through your window there is a new day breaking-
Thank God for the promise, though mind and soul be aching,


If with harvest over there is grain enough for gleaning-
There is a new tomorrow and life still has meaning.
~ Author unknown~

I guess after every single obstacle that we face with differing outcomes, the most important thing is that the spirit in us is not broken. Many of us feel down in the dumps occassionally, and lose the fight in us, but we should never allow these negativities to get the better of us, and for faith will always triumph. There will always be a better tomorrow.

Jem's Update
Went to Sentosa last night for the countdown, and it was.. let's just say that it would be my first and last foam party. And with no intention for any racism here, there was this bunch of rowdy indian middle aged guys who behaved so ungentlemanly and got me so freaked out.. ok shall not elaborate, let's just say a phobia for those kind of guys have been instilled in me.Dont worry.. I didnt get touched or anything. Ha.
I read in the papers this morning and learnt that Kallang theater actually had a gathering for all the religions to pray for world peace, and I instantly regretted not going for it! Arg! If only I had known. Never mind I'll just try to do my own.