i'm flying down under. ( im so into oxymorons these days)

anyway, in a couple of hours or so i will be off leaving sunny singapore to even sunnier perth.

i was in a dilemma about what to wear to the airport. because it's a night flight i want to be comfortable but pyjamas arent exactly apt and jeans.. nah.. i want to sleep. i am tired.
ok let's move on before i sound too bimbotic.

met k for a little while just now. went to pick up toiletries etc and had yakun. short but so sweet just walking around like that.
dar announce to your family that you want the car on tues! haha
looking forward to her picking me up. :)

anyway jan, i received your sms this morning. eh i havent leave yet la! tonight only! but thanks for the sms and the reassurance. haha
tk care of k and you tk care too!
:D

love you dar! see you when i am back. soon ok!
await my call everyday!

it's difficult being a spectator because you see the players rough it out in the field, and all they can depend on is themselves. you itch to help, it's agony, but a cheerleader -- that's the furthest you can go. yes, it's always hell watching from the sidelines, and that applies to everything.

well, im flying off tomorrow night in the wee hours of the morning. (doesnt that sound contradicting?)
6 days of girl talk! haha how bimbotic this sounds. but hey, a wedding, a birthday, hen's night, shopping, slumber parties all point to one thing, and that's girl bonding. lol
at least i am stopping short of feminist girl power talk.

i love getaways because you can, well, get away.

the only huge drawback is that k will not be with me. :(
i am going to miss her so much.
dont worry dar i will be calling you every single day!
friends in singapore, JANICE ARE YOU READING THIS! look out for her ok? haha i know i can count on you guys.

wish me a safe trip! ;p
and remember you are all loved by
ME.

there is always more than meets the eye. but what we always know all along, we fail to apply. that's just how the world has tranformed to work. it's easier to judge, than to understand, easier to be rash than to slow down. easier to point fingers, than reflect. well, to each his own, but that's the reason why everyone feels so misunderstood these days, because misunderstandings have infused into us, and became a part of our daily ongoings.
perhaps that is why people make a choice to shrug things off. not because other people dont matter, but because certain people dont matter. and it's the acceptance that there is no right or no wrong. everyone is just different.

thus, there is no such thing as an eye for an eye. at least not in my world.
id rather turn my back and ignore.

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it's countdown to yun's wedding! thank god i have another escapism.
audrey told me to practise walking around my house in those heels. *raises eyebrows*
maybe you all will see me tottering about in the office this week haha

i cant wait though! so glad to share this day with my best friend.

ok that aside one more question to ask,
does anyone know how to put a password on blogs?

simple pleasures that are so hard to come by are the ones which provide one of the more profound happiness, so that we exist in a state of bliss knowing that we have what others long to have, a special connection that you know can never be broken.
the act of falling asleep and waking up together, an act not at all complicated to do but difficult to come by. it's the pretence that you have been transported to another realm of living.. and the best part is that make believe can sometimes come true.

so i am back... (*sings* from outer space!)

i went to my beloved tiger temple!~ it was about 3 hours drive from bangkok! but walking side by side a tiger, sittting next to them, and still being alive....
adult tiger mind you. and a real live one.
haha

we didnt have a camera with us and i realllly wanted to bring a camera to the tiger temple and so we were looking around for one, and we bought a sony t7!
ps: we didnt buy it specially for the tigers!
*grinz*
kellyn is an official sony convert. (do you know the cameras she wanted were so..... haha kidding dar. but you know the kodak was realllllllly not nice)

shopping, tomyam, nice hotel room...
interesting .. uh... shows....

oh we both watched casino royale. leather seats! nice! i think we should feedback to cineleisure. ahha

well, im home.
as always, i cant decide if that's a good or a bad thing.
:)
:(
:)

now it's time to look forward to perth next week!

omg i am so excited.

whee.

take care my friends and remember you are all loved by
ME.

excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited

rising anticipation.
i . like.

i cant wait for my bangkok trip tomorrow. everyone always relishes a temporary getaway, and im not an exception. need to -throw/fling/stamp on- all my daily responsibilities and worries. ive always been one to thinking that worrying incessantly regarding something is silly. i am a damn advocate of that.
so i shall follow what i preach. i hate things that bug me.

well, i'm off to spruce up my room. bought a new cage and a feeding bowl for duey. :) yay.
thank goodness i had k with me last night to lug the cage and the stupid litter that was so amazingly heavy ( it was heavier than the cage!) from the pet shop to the car and from the car park to my house.

ok this is repetitive. but yes it just dawned on me that i really need this! k and i are going to me hermits for a little while, just her and i.
YAY!

the rest of the world and all the endless troubles you bring, you can f*** off for a little while.
:D

it's too easy to see or hear something, and then form your own assumptions, draw your own conclusions, and make your own judgements. and so often, we are wrong in our perception. perhaps humans will never ever really learn the art of 'it is not always what it seems' but maybe the innate masochistic streak in us can only be controlled but never diminished by nurture.
the scariest thing is believing in something that is wrong, and the other party, oblivious to your beliefs, is never given the opportunity to put things right.
scary? freaking scary!

we shld all learn to slow down. hear the music, not the noise.

anyhow, 2 pieces of good news to be shared.

11 november 2006.
i had my water baptism! yay! i think the sweetest part was that my mummy and i went through it together.
god's grace, i salute Him.

12 november 2006
it's k and i 11th mth! ( yun time to wish us again! whahha)
i love you. i realllllllllly love you.

people think differently, do things differently, and react differently.
to each his own, every individual's unique style. but differences are the fundamentals of brewing trouble, and the catalysts of the start of something that can get so big it gets uncontrollable.

and soon there will come a situation where one of them has to shoulder the blame, just to get everyone else to shut up.
but you know what, if it's not important, everything can be shrugged off.

and everything IS shrugged off.

today is gonna be the day where they throw it back to you? nah, the day is not here.

and the sweetest part? it never will be.

upset but accept.

everyday, we are surrounded by choices.
and like what an economist will say, there is always an opportunity cost.
but technicalities aside, you weigh your options to reach a decision. and your pros and cons may outbalance each other, and according to statistics you make the wrong move.
but you are responsible at the end of the day.
that means no whining, no lamenting. you were not forced into a situation. most of the time anyway. so put up with it.

and along the way, you make sacrifices, you train your endurance.
at the end of the day, everything will be okay, because you make it okay.

shayne ward- stand by me
Nothing's impossible, nothing's unreachable
When I am weary, you make me stronger
This love is beautiful, so unforgettable
I feel no winter cold, when we're together
When we're together..

Will you stand by me, hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I'll be alone, when the story gets told

When day turns into night, I look into your eyes
I see my future now, all the world in its wonder
This love won't fade away, and through the hardest days
I'll never question us, you are the reason
My only reason..

Will you stand by me, hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I'll be alone, when the story gets told

I am blessed to find what I need
In a world losing hope you're my only belief
You make things right, every time after time..

one day, the flame of hope you harbour within may be wavering, may flicker, but even be extinguished, but when the time is right, will ignite again.

the trouble with staying ahead is that sometimes you look back and you realise everyone got tired along the way and nobody wants to follow you anymore. and because you were too busy staying ahead, you forget to turn your head to check, until it's too late. and then begins the dilemma of whether you should continue to forge ahead, or backtrack to search for the ones you lost.
what is the image that overshadows your mind before you go to sleep? who is the one you long to fall asleep with hand in hand? whose fingers are the ones between yours? who could have been the love of your life, if only you had not lost track of what was the most important.?
or maybe priorities were different then, and they have shifted. but like yours, the love of your life priorities may have shifted too, and what you want now, is only what she could have given.

perhaps, if you didnt forget along the way, things would have been a little different.the epitomy of too late.

the idea of it, scares the hell out of me.

oh oh oh
important announcement.

i still proudly declare that the alcohol abstinence promise that i made has still been faithfully kept.
it's been over a month! credit man credit!

ps: i m referring to hard liqour ok? beer doesnt count. and dont give me technicalities that beed is alcohol. BEER DOESNT COUNT.

therefore, i conclude,

i am pure. still.
*wink*