going down to down under!

alright mates, ( i'm trying to adapt!) i'm off to the land of koalas and kangeroos, boomerangs and erm. ...rugby.

to all my mates (adapted!) who are interested, my flight is tmr night at 1am! (ok technically thursday morning 1am)

i'll touch singapore at 6am on fri 2nd sept, so here's an advance er.. happy teachers' day to er... myself. hehe.
dont forget ah!! (adapting back to singapore)

anyway, paranoid me with all my excessive and incessant worries, i just want to let you all know that you are very very much loved by

ME.

and erm, (let's be a little morbid here) should anything happen, TOUCH WOOD HIT WOOD THUMB WOOD JUMP ON WOOD! , you guys be happy always ok! and i'll always be watching out for you all. and if you want 4d numbers, i'll try.

haha. ok i'm not trying to joke here or whatever but it's important to me that you all know this ok?

cher darling! i'm gonna miss you greatly! but it's only 1 week and i'll come back with this and that and those and these for you k! i love you. :)

i'm too lazy to go into detail so let' s just briefly state that i am sort of involved in a sort of co-ownership agreement for an old car for a couple of months before it gets scraped.

it's a suzuki swift.

and i have actually grown quite fond of it!

the attachment grows.

my new friend!

but like all friends, it isnt perfect. who the hell is anyway.

ANYWAY, as far as im concerned, its main drawback is that its manual transmission.

yes i know, manual cars are 'real' driving and it's good training ground etc etc.

*pauses*

do you know why i do not take buses?
BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME SICK.

do you know why i take cabs?
because they make me sick, but not THAT sick.

why the sickness? because of manual transmission. everytime a gear is changed, my stomach changes direction with it and the butterflies and bats and dragonflies stage a protest.

conclusion, little suzuki makes me quite sick too.

sigh.

not to mention that each time i get out of the car inertia acts up. and my head throbs.
and my legs get cramps.

sigh.

poor little me with horrible motion sickness.

but i still love you little suzuki!

happy birthday uncle oliver.

do you have the time to listen to me whine..
about the nothing and everything all at once
i am one of those melodramatic fools
neurotic to the bone no doubt about it...

my usual supporters of nothing-better-to-do-at-times-jem, please do the quiz! :D

Jem's quite-weird quiz
1. if you are feeling blue, what would you do? er.. depends on why i am blue. guess i'll just distract myself and self-talk soothingly!
2. what is the best way to keep yourself in the pink of health? no smoking. no drinking. exercise regularly. (i am a promotor for the health promotion board ;p think happy thoughts! mental health is as important.
3. how would you fight the green eyed monster? get a grip jem!
4. what makes you see red? erm.. insensitivity, oversensitivity, callousness, carelessness.. ah.. plenty of things actually.
5. how can you keep a sunny yellow perspective in life? keep myself in check. but it's not exactly fantastic to be sunny yellow all the time right? it can get to a point where you may get irritatingly optimistic. gotta keep a balance man!

6. what comes to your mind when you see a porcupine? erm.. a pin cushion? ouch!
7. what will you do when you see a dodo bird(they're extinct by the way!)? i will go 'oh look dodo bird!' to which the person with me will say 'look at what and dont call me a dodo bird!'
8. what song will you burst into when you see a tyrannosaurus rex? erm...i'll be too out of breath running away to sing! but if i really have to, i'll sing 'denver the last dinosaur'. anyone remember the cartoon?
9. what do you think is a good choice of music to dance to with a polar bear? for some reason the coca cola jingle came to my head. it'll prob be a song he recgonises!
10. if a red army any bites you hard on the arm, what would you do? please bear in mind that this ant is a talking ant! um. i'll put it in a box, videotape it in action, show it some proferssor and get rich.

11. if the burger you are about to bite into suddenly says 'please dont eat me i used to be a cow', how would you react?' i wont eat it. i'll do the same as the above.
12. what would you do if your prawn noodles had no prawn in it? doesnt matter. i dont really like prawn noodle prawn.
13. what would happen if the world ran out of french fries? haha doesnt matter either im not a big fan. anyway i think there would be a loss in the average weight of the world.
14. if your irritating brother made you annoyed , and you know he is looking for a slice of bread, would you sweetly offer to butter it for him, and proceed to do so on a mouldy piece? haha! erm.. tempting. but no la i wouldnt. i'll just crack a rotten egg into his soup. :X
15. if your friend is asleep and you want to play a prank, and you only have an egg, tomato sauce, sardines and a string, what would you do with it?... suddenly i think my quiz is very difficult... aiyah im very boring i wouldnt do that to my friend!
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sometimes i think i have too much time on my hands.
:S
but i like doing this!

i'm looking for a part time job!
i applied to teach at another branch of cristofori on some other days. cross your fingers for me ok?

my ares downloads porn automatically. i dont know why.
but yesterday, i got so fed up because the amount of porn was so horrendous and disgusting that i deleted it and redownloaded another version.
another issue to cross fingers!

last night, i dreamt i quarrelled with zen. a big huge fight which left her in tears. (psst. actually she was wailing and babbling heh) anyway i called her a crybaby! and i left her all alone. haha
sorry zennie. you know i'd never make you cry in real life right? *angelic smile*

this time next week.. i'll be down under...

OH OH OH before i forget. I THOUGHT OF ANOTHER JOKE THE OTHER DAY!
*clears throat*

What did the nose say to the mouth?
EH! WE BOTH SMELL!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
omg so funny right

for your priviledged viewing pleasures :)
i realise with horror that i forgot how to spell priv... you know.. that 'p' word above. is it correct?


dele louey gwen and i!


joeybro and i! we ALWAYS seem to look to happy right bro? see those wide grins!


when duey was sleeping...


mummy in those sunglasses we bought her. i think she looks great! like a big star! which of course she is.


my new pet. haha not exactly. but he comes to the house for his daily feeds. and his meowing is just sooo adorable. see his feet are all white! so cute.


my best friend and i during our shopping


the best couple in the world. ;p ;p ;p

EXCUSE ME. TYPING FEARS OUT MAY ACTUALLY DIMINISH IT AND I'M WILLING TO TRY ANYTHING RIGHT NOW.

granted, it's only once a week and thus not an incredible feat but it still doesnt change the fact that this is the only job that ive held onto for close to a year.

my sense of responsibility towards my students are definitely present, i more or less panic along with them when their exam approaches, im not indiferrent towards their progress ( or for some, lack of it), i stopped trying to conjour the strangest scenarios to generate an excuse to not going to work. (unfortunately if i am honest, i gave up)

from the sound of it, it seems like the strings of discipline has been tightened. ironically, maybe subtle or inner resentment/rebellion or god knows what seemed to have loosened it in other areas.

or maybe i've always been like that and i should be more or less proud that at least i am responsible in at least one particular area instead of drifting by like i always do.

damn. that hit way much closer to home.

*gloomy*

yesterday, during my break, i was taking a walk around the neighbourhood. and i found myself wondering what would happen if i never went back to the school to resume teaching. change my handphone number and disappear.
the scary thing was, disappearing proved to be to tempting, i was almost salivating.
and the scarier thing was, for a moment or 2, i was considering it.

i went back because i realised it wasnt realistic. my handphone was still in the studio. not to mention house keys.

*double gloom*

my results for year 2 will be out soon.

sigh double sigh.

ok yes some teacher-like people out there will probably thinking that if i had put in some effort i need not entertain these fears. well give up! IM the teacher around. haha
oops. i recognise signs of near hysteria.

like the time i lost a new pack of reds at holland v and was sooo amused when i couldnt find it.
haa i guess zen joey dele and gwen would remember that.
anyway it's almost akin to throwing ten dollars and the only thing i felt was amusement!?
see? i told u it was a moment of insanity.

omg. i threw ten dollars away? *appalled*

ok slow yes yes 56k.

anyway so yes where was i after the bout of terrible digression? oh yes exams. contrary to what some may believe, passing a law paper, even from a private institution is not easy at all. in fact i would go so far as to say it's more difficult to pass than our local unis. and no i'm not taking the piss.

when i entered in year 1, there were about 80 people give and take who took the exam.
4 subjects to be taken. 4 huge ones.
anyway let's see, about 30 people give and take passed all 4.

SEE! IT'S SO DARN DIFFICULT!

i only passed because someone up there decided that He reallly likes me. haha
i scraped by my 4 exams passing by the maximum of 3 marks.

sigh. and here i am praying ever night for Him to like me again.

so some may ask, why the hell didnt i seize the opportunity to study?? i ask myself that too.

what's that chinese proverb? the mind is wiling but no strength. or something like that.
well, for my case, IT'S BOTH! i cant study. nor do i know how to.

:<

i feel hysteria rising over me again.

cause i'm gonna be a drifter drifting all over again.

sigh triple sigh.

Honesty is the best policy...

would like to specially highlight YAKUN KAYA TOAST FAR EAST PLAZA.
hell, if i were anyone, i would give them the highest badges of commendation!

i thought that we are in a time where people pick up handphones and congratulate themselves on a great find. nice to know that there are people out there with some morals!

:D
cher dropped her handphone at yakun and it was picked up by someone working there, who patiently waited for out panicked call and told us that it was safe and sound not stolen and yes we can return to pick it up.

HOW IMPRESSIVE!
so maybe you guys might have done the same. but weigh it against all those who wouldnt and you become a gross minority.

SO PEOPLE, EAT AT YAKUN KAYA TOAST FAR EAST PLAZA OK!

how can you say you're in love when all you ever do is fight?

so we've heard all the usual defences about how arguments can tighten a relationship, how it draws people closer because of the deeper understanding that emerges and all that whatevers.

do i sound sceptical?

contrary to how the tone may sound, i actually do agree with the above. what frustrates me isnt because i dont believe, but because others dont.

oh you men of little faith...

if you argue over issues, clear the air, well done.
but if it's nonsensical bickering, then i wholly agree with all the sceptics out there.

can anyone truly move on?
why not?

memories may have set someone apart, but that's something intangible that cant be touched.
if one cant live with that memory, then maybe this moving on in question has to be re-examined.

shrugs.

as far as i'm concerned, i have.

she's a friend. and that's all she's gonna be.

KEEP YOUR RELATIONSHIP IN CHECK
1. dont ever bash your partner up! (haha duh.! domestic abuse is a big nono. )

ok seriously.
2. have faith. in yourself, your partner and your relationship.

3. remember that faith doesnt stem from anything. that's why it's called faith. you just believe even if you have no physical whatever! FAITH PEOPLE FAITH!!

4. trust. dont question your partner's fidelity unless your intuition tells you to. sometimes your suspicions are unfounded. not only about the issue about fidelity, many other things too.

5. dont restrict your partner. even vices. it'll only lead to resentment even though it's for their own good. i think they're old enough to know how to handle themselves. (unless of course you're either with someone very young or someone horribly immature. *pauses*wait. what the hell are you doing with someone horribly immature!?)

6. if you're horribly immature, grow up! it's time to start thinking and looking at the world and its people.

7. keep things simple. live by the motto of 'i love you, you love me, do the best for each other, happily ever after!' yes i know things are not that simple but all your senseless ponderings and overdone reflections only complicate things.

8. the notion of loving your partner for who they are is bullshit. if you're talking about dress sense or musical interests, fine. but if you're an alcoholic am i supposed to accept it cause it's part of you? no right. or if your nature is to say hurtful things without thinking when you're angry, your partner is supopsed to put up with that? no right. for goodness sake at least change for the better!
ps: just for the record ive been keeping my temper in check. ;p

sigh. so how much did you score?
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happy national day singapore.
i'm proud to call myself a citizen.

sometimes i find myself lost in another realm of living, but maybe i just chose to lose myself.

the reason for the lack of updates is that time has disappeared. so i'm supposed to find it, but at this moment, it seems to have vanished and no amount of searching can give me the ample time needed for anything.

all about prioritizing huh?

i know!

THAT's the problem.

relationships are complicated. it's innate! it's in their nature! so why mess it up even further? that's what puzzles me. how such intricate details can matter against the bigger scheme of things. so we shouldnt judge significance from its size.
it's all about relativity isnt it? which is more important?

and that again, is about prioritzing and voila! we have another problem with the same issue.

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to joeybro, kos, lizard and nikki, if you guys are reading this, just wanna say thumbs up for your upcoming matches. :>

i just watched charlie and the chocolate factory!!!! and I LOVE IT! the colours, the acting, the oompa-loompas......
not to mention johnny depp.

which reminded me of a certain someone who said 'some people have said i look like johnny depp'
COUGH SPLUTTER GAG SPIT VOMMIT!

if he has any inkling of looking like johnny depp, then i resemble queen elizabeth!!!!

funny how incidents that happened sometime back can leave such deep loathing mark.

WHICH LEAVES ME POSTIVELY GLOWERING!

maybe i should just get over it. haha.

but hey, this same person even told my friend that i kissed him on the cheek!!!!!
AND YOU GUYS OUT THERE THINK I HAVE A TWISTED SENSE OF HUMOUR!!??

this guy was trying to chase louey at that time so maybe it was a ploy to make a jealous or something but HELLO!! ME!?! KISS YOU!?!?!

I'D RATHER KISS A FROG!

and you know what? i actually do mean it.

COUGH SPLUTTER GAG SPIT VOMMIT!

damn i'm getting hysterical all over again.

haha okok get over it jem!

:X

anyway, johnny depp- look-a-like-cough-splutter-gag-spit-vommit aside, go watch it. the ending differs from the book but fits nicely nonetheless.