sometimes we stop to think about the people we've met along the way. the ones who pass by for a second, and others who linger but gradually fade.
the ones who stayed, and the ones who walked away.
how you wish you held on to some a little longer, and ran away from some a little faster. ( f*** the life lessons! ha)
there were those who changed, sometimes not to our liking. and you find yourself getting sentimental over past times, and you think you want to relive it, only for something to happen again which makes you realise that some things are better left in the past.
and you watch some of them grow, and you're as proud as a parent. and you see some fall, but you have no strength to catch them.
and then there are those who hover in the background, and you glance at them from time to time, and you wonder 'why they hell havent you grown up!'
there are people who make you count your blessings, and people, who sadly, make you envious.
you admire some of them, and you patronize some.
and then, there are those whom you loved and lost, and loved and let go, and loved and went.
people you think back and go ' she was the nicest person ever!' yet such things are always taken for granted.
people who you think of fondly from time to time.
and you wonder if any of them think about you too.
you remember dates, and times, and moments.
you laugh, you get disgusted. haha.

but at the end of the day, all that matters are the ones by your side.

last night i dreamt i went clubbing with the vips and halfway i thought i lost them but turns out that they abandoned me!
and i was so furious i smsed Y and told Y that i was going to 'have lasik done so i can see better'

:S
couldnt i have come up with something better?

say something like 'im like your brain. you may not use me or notice me very often but im a vital part of ur life and you'll be nothing without me!'

haha. or least something more profound rather than such a bimbotic statement.

anyway on that note, i really would like to go for lasik. however, my mummy disapproves for now. a few years back, she told me to wait until i am 25. now she says wait until im 30.
( dont ask me ask her where that logic comes from )
but yes being a good girl, maybe i'll put it off and then slowly cajole her to the idea.

nighters.

one bedroom villa. private pool. private jacuzzi.
daily breakfast.
2 hours spa.
dinner for 2 next to the pool.

wowee!

:)

just a couple of weeks more, hang in there jem!
and it'll be 4 full days of full on pampering.

like what m said, ' rest those weary bones'

had an enjoyable conversation with the marshmallow lover about BEs an LEs and turnover rates.

haha it's msn convos like this that makes a draggy day go so much faster.

the problem with us is that we never know how to be contented.
and every now and then you are thrown off balance. and it's easier to be thrown off then to get on again.

maybe it's healthy though. some mental and heart exercise. haha..

you think?

but we're humans! im back to the 'moment' theory. some things and feelings are meant to last for that moment. you dont act on it, you dont carry it forward, you just relish it and keep it tucked away somewhere forever.
it's like a lighter. a small spark, and it's gone.
but no more fluid to light it up again.

im really tired.

i need a nice good weekend away from all the problems, the phone calls, and everybody else.

tgif though! and a long weekend.
i need the sleep.

when i was young, my mum brought me to watch disney on ice, and because i was such a good girl :), i was allowed to buy one toy from the cart that was selling all the disney characters. my cousin, ( she's either richer or even more of a good girl than me ) bought the whole entire disney family. i was almost influenced into buying mickey, since everyone bought mickey, but my mum persuaded me to get something less conventional but equally if not more special goofy.

so goofy slept on the same bed as me for many years. as in many years. like about 10 years that kind of many years. but as one grows up, you dont really pay that much attention to your toys anymore.
one day, just before going to sleep, i suddenly realised goofy was missing. i wasnt necessarily worried, because it probably dropped under the bed or wherever, i mean, it must be somewhere right?

so i searched and searched and searched. and i dont live in a big house. so there are only so many places goofy can hide.
it was very late then, close to 1am, but i woke my maid up to search with me because you know, it's an itch you really need to scratch.

and then my maid dropped the bombshell.

she was washing goofy, and hung him out to dry. and remember i said i dont live in a big house? well to be more specific, i live in an hdb. on the 8th floor. and she hung him out to dry on the bamboo poles, pegged by his ears.
according to her, goofy fell down. well duh right, i mean, goofy isnt dumbo.
she didnt realise until she wanted to bring in the clothes, and when she went downstairs, goofy isnt there anymore.

so that was it. i remember thinking i mustnt cry, i mean i think i was in my teens already. but, when goofy dropped, so did my heart.
i cant blame my maid, i mean, she was washing goofy, that's a good thing.

i only hope some kid is treating him well.

my mum bought me a small goofy after that, and along the years, i received some goofy stuff. and even more recently, i went to shell to pump petrol and in the 7-11 i saw a huge goofy who was so soft and huggable i bought him on the spot, even though im not a soft toy buyer.

i love my new goofys, but some things just aint the same anymore.

:(

the other night, i dreamt the vips and i were all back in sec 4. settings were all the same, jo teo still was running after us and we were all still running. but our faces were the older ones, as in, we looked like how we look present day.

anyway i remember sitting in the canteen and a certain crush n walked by. and i had to do the 'omg im so excited but i hv be cool' kind of act.

i cant remember the details after that but i awoke and then i was half laughing and thinking of a certain d whom if she knew what i was dreaming she wld probably be rolling her eyes.

and then i went back to sleep and i dreamt of d. :)

oh gosh!
sighs. some things dont change.

ive been realllly busy these days. i need a long long break. just to get away everything.
i need to sleeep and sleep and sleep without worrying what i have to do the next day and what i did on that day and i need to wake up feeling refreshed.

i need bali. not barley!
yl finally got her passport done.