Lets101 -

haha woah.

an about turn. strange how humans can have so many faces. and how they show you different ones when they feel like it. or when they feel they have a valid reason to. or maybe, people just change. and well, some changes , you just cant adapt to. or when they changed, they didnt bother to take you into account. does that mean, you are less important than you thought you were?

i need to rest.
across the miles, i think of you. it was such a sweet xmas card.

christmas is coming. my favourite season of the year. :) i want this to be a good christmas. you know, end the year nicely, and start the next on a right foot.
but then, ive learned that you can have a perfect start, but in the middle so many things can go wrong.
nonetheless, let's just play safe.
but i'm tired of all the misery in the world. i want it to be a happy happy place.

i didnt get my ladies presents last year. so i gotta make up this year. :)
Ladies! our annual christmas dinner dont forget!
i cant wait.

it's going to be the first time in my life receiving a bonus. haha have i come a long way or what.
my mummy has earmarked her LV wallet as a christmas present. but money spent on mummies are always well spent.

celebrated joeybro's birthday over dinner at Ember at Hotel 1929 the other day. happy birthday bro! it's so endearing, how we went through all the mindless arguments, gripes, etc etc so reach where we are. love love love.

kos's birthday is another's coming up. :)
another old friend with fond memories.

gosh. i make them sound so old.
:)

how does one reach closure? i think, for some things, you cant, because you dont want to. closure would give it a finality to it.
it's ok. *pats* when you're ready.

i always feel, one knows when the time is right. if there is ever a right time at all.
and who knows.
there is always magic in the air. and magic isnt an illusion. it's as real as u want it to be, or what you believe it to be.

Declan Galbraith has just got a new found fan in me!
go check out his amazing voice in youtube.

right now right now!!!!!

jemhasnatsinherpants.

i wonder, is there such a thing as multiple homes?

home doenst have to be one place right?

but if home is really where the heart is, then how?
we only have one heart.

a simple moment of promise. the one who bears the consequences isnt the one who got hurt. but also the one who made the promise. after so long, does anyone still remember the magic between the two? or like the promise, was it broken long ago?
the fingers have let go, but is the heart still strung?

has life been reduced to such? does this happen to the majority and not the minority? what happened to old fashioned true love and fidelity?
people like me has tarnished its vision.

each and every time, it's only a one sided conversation. so many questions unanswered, too many things unfulfilled. or maybe i just need to say those few words. those precious few words that would right out world again. but these words, like the love, belongs to a world i walked out on, a world i left behind, because i just didnt know what else to do.

how can i tell her i dream of her so often? and in those dreams, we hold the conversation ive been needing to have. does she hear me in my dreams, when i dream of her, is she dreaming of me too? are we talking to each other? or is it, like so many other things, a mere optical illusion designed by the whoevers to laugh at us, or by the silent justice who carries out the punishment i deserve.

a thousand words. or maybe just a simple action. or even just an eye contact, or a coded gesture, just to show her what she needs to see, and what i need her to know. but all that has been robbed from me, again a consequence of complacency, or neglect.

how can i tell her the heartache, i'm still getting used to it. that at times, it's too literal. how can i, when i dont exist in that world anymore.

i lead a different life now. a happy one. that's my world now.

but during moments when my guard is lowered, i revisit the other world. and the pain starts all over again. arg.

how can i tell her all this, when she isnt around to listen anymore.
and who can i blame, when i am the one to blame.