i used to have this friend, used being the operative word.
maybe i judged too quick, and maybe she went a little overboard, but the reasons dont matter now except that all i have left of this friend are strange nostalgic dreams which leave me feeling a tad sentimental which in turn makes me highly impatient with myself.

i realise that as time goes by, many of us grow apart. none of us are truly right or wrong, but our paths just lead us away from each other. i used to - albeit naively- think of those oh so strong bonds that can keep a relationship together no matter the differences etc etc etc but perhaps that is just some form of security thinking we instill in us.

a wise one once said friendship is about accepting the person as she is. it made me feel quite ashamed because i was/am always too quick to point out all the mistakes without maybe giving it a chance to think that maybe the problem may lie with my inadequate tolerance level for all things abnormal from my current life.

but the sad truth of life is that the footsteps we have in each others' lives may last only if we are walking together. and any straying means you might be left behind. especially if you dont make an effort to keep up, or i dont make an effort to slow down.

sigh. does everything in life require work?? i thought it's things like friendship or families that keep you sane from the everyday hectic working life.
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today is the 25th of october. once upon a time a boy was born and grew up to be my dad. happy birthday daddy wherever you are.