should have said this, should have done that. ah, if i were God, i'll just be sick these laments. weak and pathetic, we humans are.

i started on this book called 'have a little faith ' by mitch albom. went to a bookstore to get it yesterday and was informed that they dont stock that book and threw a mini hissy fit because that was just impossible. it's a bestseller and they dont have it? the guy just didnt bother looking hard enough. anyway the manager stepped in, got me the book in a jiffy and soothed the ruffled feathers.

im glad i got stroppy, cause i really wanted to read that book, and it turned out to be such a great comfort to me. the timing is just so appropriate. im not done with the book, but it deals a lot with religion, and how faith is abt believing something bigger than yourself and the comforts it brings.

so dear God, pls take away all the pain from my family now, esp my grandfather, and my mum, and my aunts. dont worry abt the grandkids, we're all still emotionally strong enough to withstand this, so whatever help u planned to give us please give it to our elders instead.

and of course, pls keep her safe in your loving arms.

amen.