i dont really feel that i waste time. maybe occasional minutes, but i do try to make the most out of time yet there doesnt seem to be enough hours to squeeze in all the matters and the people who are important to me.

it gets tiring sometimes. and a little bit sad, because the reward you get for something is at the expense of say, not realising that your parents are getting older.

i need to learn to put more things into perspective, and learn how to be more giving and learn to sacrifice more.

on another note, the intense feeling of wanting to punch you has passed because the clouds aint so grey anymore, but if you do anything the slightest bit out of line, im going to recall all my karate moves ! heh. and ive got loads of support, many hackles have been raised ok!

on another note, it's a thurs rainy afternoon perfect for sleep and im at home! yay!
parents are on leave today, maybe steamboat later??