drinking is supposed to be a social activity, it's not supposed to bring dread to the participants.
that's when i know my drinking days are over and done with.
sure i get the craves sometimes, but then i get reminded of all the past grief it brought, and i decided that lousy alcohol is simply not worth it.

most people wont understand, because they see a very surface thing. it's only if one is directly involved, then the empathising will come. sigh. that's human nature, sometimes i feel we are not open or sensitive enough to read into people. and let's face it, who has the patience to.

but at the risk of sounding like an old age pensioner, i'm turning my back on it.
ive got enough of alcohol, not when it's drunk the way it isnt supposed to be.

alright, i dunno what spurred this sudden inclination to declare my abstinence.

but anywya, i'm in office now, supposed to be working. operative word being supposed!
but i'm suddenly quite excited by my trip. plus we're doing an extension so i'll be back on tues!

i'm really looking forward to some relaxation. do you know there's a permanent frown on my face now, and i look too serious now.
i need to quit worrying for a couple of days.