i could be indignant. i could be defiant. but really, i have no defence.
it isnt one of those things that i can say ' it's not what it seems' because what you see is what you get. it's truly happened the way it did.

i'd like to believe that there is a grey area in everything we do. and in the greater scheme of things that are out of our expertise to understand, maybe things to happen for a reason.

a God given? or is that simply the best excuse for irresponsibility? how can one be such a heartless jerk, and hurt someone, knowing that it was intentional, and still have the nerve to say, 'hey it happened for a reason'

well ive got a better one, listen to this.

split personalities. ok lest it sounds a tad psychotic,
let's put it another way.

alternative universes.

we behave this way in this world, and that way in that world.

if this makes sense to you, you're as lost as i am. but this is the only way i know how to comfort myself, and perhaps find myself a little.