some experiences make you a better person, others a worse person.
but for better or for worse, it really does make you a wiser person.

and being wise, i keep telling myself, isnt about being cynical. or jaded. or wary about all those around you, bitter around you.

it's about learning a lesson, that some things and some people arent what they seem. and if you play with fire, you're bound to get burnt. especially if you started a really large and uncontrollable one, till the firemen had to step in.
being bitter, being vengeful, hurts your soul.
i need to accept this lesson learnt, recognise my faults and where i went wrong, and not how others did me wrong.

it's just that i paid a very expensive price for this lesson.
some things in life are priceless. and it isnt only the good things. it's the painful ones as well.