i cant even put my finger on what exactly i am going through right now.
But that's how it's always supposed to be aint it?

Fear, mingled with anxiety, plus frustration.

i am going to go on my knees and pray that all goes well.
and everything is being hyped up like how it always is as usual.

can i make a bargain now and say let me get lucky and i will know the precautions to take from now on, which previously i was flighty about.

Why is always like that? The fear of losing makes you treasure.

I cant lose it. i really cannot.

world,pray with me.