it's kinda hard to explain exactly how my mind is working right now.

i know for a fact that i'm not wooly brained or whatever, but the drive ( not that i had much to begin with) has eliminated completely.

i dont know how i could have missed the paper ( ok so maybe i just took the dates for granted)

but in a secret kind of way i'm thankful.

because now i have a great excuse to skip all the rest, cause the missed paper would drag my whole grade down. not to mention i wldnt have done well for the rest anyway.

as i have reiterated, i would rather skip than fail.

it's all very well to say just try. and maybe i should or whatever.

but realistically and practically speaking, the point isnt there anymore.

plus yes, havent i always been the master of running away?

i'm not ready. maybe i never will be.
but i'm not feeling it.