it's not a search, it's a realisation, that happiness is not given to you by what others do, but a feeling which grows within you because of the things around you. it's not a waste, but a sad pity, when you reach a stage where you allow your happiness to stem from one factor. you have more than one root, nurture the others.

time is subjective. perhaps it took too long, perhaps you have been drained from whatever resources you had long ago. you put too much hope, too much life into it, that you neglected the most important aspect of it all, which is yourself.

so you either leave, or you wait. but whichever decision, hold your head high, and look elsewhere, and in the meantime, find yourself.

there is a reason why they said you should love yourself before you love others.