how can something which makes you so happy also make you so sad?
simple. that's called living a life.
if it means that much to you, it has the power to make or/and break.

plus we are all schizophrenics in our own weird ways.
our violent reactions, or our apathy, are just alter-egos stepping in to replace us for the time being.

many of us punch the mirror as we look into it. sometimes we gaze wistfully at what could have been, and wail dismailly at what it is now.
when it comes to looks, contentment is hardly an issue. after all, it is a condition that is never met. i guess it all boils to esteem.
it's great to improve, but if you start getting obsessive, you become blind to your traits. and in your fervent quest to annihiliate your external flaws, you forget to nourish the good, you neglect it.

so your bad becomes good, but your good becomes bad. vicious cycle!

please dont forget you are a fragile, to be handled with care. even if you are embarking with good intentions, dont let your overzealousness ruin what pervious good you have already done ok?

piano dip this thurs. my past few days have been all about ... THAT INSTRUMENT. it even irritates me to say its name now. haha yes dramatic jem.
my kids' exams are coming too. sometimes, i wonder why i panic so much when they dont even realise the seriousness of it. i dont blame them, (well only a little) but i wish that i'm not such a worry wart.

but anyway, bottom line is, i'm stressed over my exam. yes mr cool dont give a shit is actually quite stressed. the criteria to pass is so damn difficult!! boo hoo hoo. and my fingers aint doing what i am telling them. double boo hoo hoo...

:(
:,,,,,,,(

england v ecuador. expected england to win, but thought ecuador would at least score 1. poor things!

caught scary movie 4 at 1.30am last night. it's supposed to be a comedy right?
but there was one really scary part that made me jump out of my seat in fright la!

it's the ju-on kid i swear. even in a stupid comedy he still looks creepy.

anyway the movie was lame, silly. but it's okay for a little bit of unwinding and relaxation.

bought the book 'marley and me'. 40 dollars for one book! anyway it's based on a true story of a family and their dog. i love animal stories, esp true ones. they're so heartwarming.
i'm waiting for duey to do something heroic too.

maybe i shall faint and he can give me mouth to mouth.

cool.

oh wait. duey is a hero already.

;)
my precious duey!