sometimes changing your mind isnt the same as being fickle. it just means you had the measure of thought and the courage to alter.

i said in my previous entry, one thing i am dying to comprehend is why people do and say the things they do. at the risk of sounding like a self righteous and judgemental bitch, i cannot for the life of me why how people can be so spiteful.

hurting someone is one thing. deliberately hurting is a totally whole new form. and i'm not referring to hot blooded angry words spurted out in a heated moment.
i'm talking about an almost measured calculation, and intentional threat to cause fear, and trust me, fear is one of the worst tortous imprisonment that ever was because it binds you, it stamps and spits on personal liberty, and freedom? hah. non existent.


a friend of mine was in a relationship which in my opinion-- (yes no one asked but im givnig my 2 cents worth anyhow) --she's well shot of now.
of course, it takes 2 hands for a break down of a relationship, and no matter how either party may have acted in the course of the relationship is due to their factors as a couple and individuals.
but the aftermath?

'i know too many things about you that people would be shunned away by. i can put it all up here but i wont. because im not like you.'

correct me, but i cant help feeling there's an oxymoron somewhere. kinda like a contradiction. i mean, this just seems like an introduction to more.

threatening to divulge secrets, and i dunno! everything else of the above.
and you know the scariest thing is, this is probably the mildest.
it disappoints me. am i living in a fairy tale land? maybe but i believe most can too.
being vile is NOT necessary. what happened to love, and perhaps more aptly, respect?

you know, as confucius says 'before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.'

all i can say is, grow up kid. the world is bigger than what you see before your eyes. you need to try a little bit of kindness and stop being one the big bad wolves.

you can shoot me and say i dont understand your position for you to be driven to this stage. yup i dont. i can understand crimes of passion but i dont understand your actions which appear to be out to hurt her. some thing arent what they appear? oh but some things arent that complicated.

i dont understand. and i hope i never have to.

and to my friend.
hold your head high and keep that chin up. you have many friends who can see through lots of things and will remain immune to his whatever-ing.
be big and dont let him triumph.
you're you, and no one can take that away unless you allow them to. he may have, so get it back.
cheers.