over time, i have discovered a pattern which previously i was unsure of but now is confirmed.
if i fall asleep in an uncomfortable position or dissatisfied mood (let's not even talk about being in a state of happiness) , chances are, my sleep would be ruined by nightmares.

also, i get really grouchy when i am tired, and thus if im not in bed by a certain level of tiredness, the above would happen.

and that's just what occured yesterday. irritability, discomfort etc led to a plague of nightmares.

needless to say, i woke up feeling like i never slept a wink at all.
and so here begins the chain, where its spooky rattles and difficulty to break makes me just want to kick out at the world.

m.i.s.e.r.a.b.l.e.

therefore, i prostrate myself and really thank god that i have someone to sleep and wake up tonight. just the thought brings such immense relief, that the dread of the night is dissolving into non existence.

and with every negative issue, there's always a good one to take your troubles away.

so on a very happy note...
recently i bought jo a polo ralph big pony pullover for her birthday. and i was eyeing the short sleeve white polo shirt for myself but yes, due to financial constraints i had to content myself in admiring it from a distance. (dont you just hate that??)

but when i met k today, she handed me MY BIG PONY RALPH LAUREN SHIRT!!!!!!
can i just boast that i simply have the most generous and even better, the most thoughtful gf anyone can have. she knew how much i longed for it and forgo her own stuff just to get it for me.

you know, i do love this girl. not because of big ponies or small ponies or whatever size ponies, but simply because she's just so damn wow.
and you know how i always advocate that happiness is really important? i'm never short of it when im with her.

i implore that people understand. you dont give this kinda thing up just like that.
people fight for love and happiness.
and im a gawd damn one helluva warrior when it comes to her.