how can one bring himself to say dont go, when he knows that if he opens his mouth to say that, he will be robbing her of an opportunity, and standing in her way to embark on what may be a fulfilling mission.

how can one bring himself to be selfish, when it is only irrational fear that wants her to stay?

he knows that this would be a test. a test needed for a relationship such as theirs.

he's almost convinced that they wont pass. and then he asks himself 'why?' to which he cant answer. and then he begins to udnerstand that if they dont pass, he will know that it isnt really meant to be after all.

yes he knows they need this.

but he is just very very afraid.
no one wants to lose one of the best things in his life.
no one wants to throw happiness away.

but yes, they need this.

and because he loves her, he will not stand in her way.

he will wait. and wait..

and pray that he will not be waiting in vain.
pray that she still loves him and needs him more than ever.

and pray she doesnt come home in somebody else's arms.

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so this is what love is. not to grasp on tightly so that she will never leave.
but to let go when needed.

and swallow all that's eating him. and do it all on his own.

just so he can let go with a smile, hug her and say have fun, i'm proud of you.

ive got one more month left..