lapses into silence and ponders

is this what i have been reduced to, or is this what i have grown to be?

too many questions, no explanations, no answers.

if promises are made to be kept, why the silent trepidation that it may be broken?

faith, trust, hope and love.
the very essence of everything, yet how slowly they nurture, and how quickly they vanish, only to be replaced by their antonyms.

the endless battles of the heart against the mind. which the heart eventually triumphs, but winning is always with its price. there is no such thing as a painless victory.

but ultimately, you are the farmer. you reap what you sow. and with tolerance, patience, and all other virtues, your harvest will not fail you.

and that, is what i shall hold on to.

unconditional love? not quite. but trying.

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to you: we learn new things everyday. sometimes we need more lessons before we understand it. and sometimes we need time to absorb it. but either way, i'll get it in the end. just..erm.. dont give up ok?

to audrey: thanks for meeting me, and no thanks for scaring me. haha just kidding. (or maybe not!) anyway glad i confided in you.. and yeah... will bear your msg in mind. love ya buddy.