you need to care enough to get angry.
because if that someone doesnt affect you, nonchalence would be the answer.

but what if it was fear?

what frightens you? what do you associate with dread and horror?

and i'm not referring to phobias, such as fear of dying or fear of spiders or whatever even if they may leave you with the same effects.

what if the thing that horrifies you is actually a person?

not meaning to sound patronising, but unless you've really been in the shoes of the victim, you cannot dismiss the gravity of this.

yet, i can concede it is difficult to recgonise the severity of it because the idea of being afraid of a person just seems almost ridiculous. because that was how i reproved myself yet it was out of my hands.

but to live in fear is the worst feeling in the world.

and even when you have broken the chains, it still trails behind you and you can hear its spooky rattles ever so often. too often.

but this is the best method for character enhancement. because that constant internal battle within yourself fortifies you to such a point that you realise you come away a stronger person. you were forced into a challenge which you couldnt refuse, and you know what? you won.

and that triumph comes with the sweet reward of LIBERTY!

to be free from fear is the best freedom of all.

it takes years, it took years but i realised that day that i can look at fear and instead of going 'oh my gawd' followed by a whole influx of bad memories and frantic heart beating and self chastising that i got involved with a total psychopath (and i am really not exaggerating. ok maybe just a little bit. but seriously, only a little.) i can just go yucks!

hallelujah.

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Happy Randoms

I bought a $300 tennis racket for only $150! what a great bargain. thank you singapore for your great singapore sale.

I got through my first day at work without dropping any plates. not on the floor, not on anyone's head. the only stupid thing i did was attempting to pick up the claypot with bare hands. yeah so dumb right.. :p

mau cher zen and i are gonna be joey's background dancers for butch hunt. haha! we're gonna go all out to have fun. and it's not retarded. it's refreshing! plus fun. i realised i cant dance. not unless it's choreographed boyband moves (OMG!) or clubbing.
ok fine actually any type of dancing also cannot BUT it's just that it is especially bad!
nevermind la right bro? ;p

psst: i bet joey is dying to seize the oppotrunity to rub herself all over me. haha!

been spending time with my maumaujane. :D

gonna stayover at cher's place on thurs and get to eat my yummy fried rice which i have not eaten in months. no one makes fried rice like you do my darling!i love you!
yummy yummy yummy, ah yummy yum yum..