who's the active and who's the passive in a relationship? no, i'm not talking about those secondary lesbian related terms here. i mean it in its generic form. i believe and still believe that there is one partner who is more domineering than the other. can equality ever exist?

i admit i can be a pain at times. ok fine a big pain the ass. *waves white flag*
wanting my other half to give in all the time and not retaliate verbally is what i like to stress upon. because i dislike it when people argue with me, especially when i think i did no wrong.

heh. guess you all just want to slap me now huh?

well i AM trying not to be such a chauvanistic idiot, and respect individuals' opinions. after all, i remind myself that i do not want a submissive partner --that'll be horrifying. the whole relationship will be tilted to my way and that's the perfect epitome of an unhealthy relationship which will only lead to resentment and disdain.

my up-bringing was fine. only towards my latter years, i basked in my mother's love and oops. got baked! because she loves me so much, maybe too much, i forgot that ultimately i have to be responsible for how i behave.
no more expectations of being spoilt now!

but it's precisely because of that same upbringing that has led me to be protective towards my loved ones, in addition to paranoia. if i care for you, i overstep the mark of average caring and look out for you, sometimes forgetting that you have to step away to avoid suffocation.

everyone has flaws. i have mine. plenty.

such as my temper. from my exterior, i guess i look pretty much mild-mannered huh? but sometimes i get so hot that i have to fight to control it before it gets out of hand, albeit rather unsuccessful at times. :/

but hey, i see the light!
:>
see.. that's the first step to trying.