at one point in time not very long ago, i told myself, detachment may be a temporary solution, but do not be so guarded to the point where you forget how to feel.
it was a reminder i had to keep by my side, because then, i was in danger of erasing the line to becoming one incapable of penetration. but by choice, i inched forward and for a long while, it felt like i was void of any intimate feelings, simply because i didnt want to feel. or didnt have the energy to.

being me, i take everything on its extremes, this being no exception. right now, i opened up to a new world, savouring the euphoria that even little joys brings, and experience pure blissful happiness that had desperately needed a catch up.
As the law of principle applies, everything must be in balance. and scales tipped more favourably to one side spells trouble. And trouble comes in the form of vulnerability.
little things may bring a smile but little things may also bring a tear.
but they are inversely proportionate.
ie. little things bring big smiles. little things bring big tears.

you have the aptitude to love on a level you have never loved before because you allowed yourself to give wholly. something which you thought you would never do, but you realise now that maybe because you didnt care for that person enough to feel on such an altitude.

and loving someone is really the best form of giving.

but it also means that that person has the power to hurt you. and i mean, really hurt you.
your sensitivity is at its max, and it's not always an advisable thing.

but if i had to make a choice between loving less, armour myself against hurt and loving you more and have no shield, i'd take the latter anyday.

only for cher, i will.