so ive lost this game and there's no second round, but when i pause to think about what ive gained, maybe i'm a winner after all. ..

i made an important choice just now. * feels important looks important*
ok maybe because it seemed like a long time since i actually came to a decision which matters.
anyway, ive decided not to take my piano dip this june, and take it in nov instead.
simply because my london exam date and this date clashes.
haha ok so maybe it was more of like no choice but still.

i feel more relaxed though. at least some pressure is being taken off.

ive decided that i shall go to school next week and take the exams anyhow.
but i'll let myself do it open-book.
i dont think my lecturers will care anyway. they'll prob be so happy that i even put in an attendance.
no point in doing close book cause i know the only thing ill write is my name.
so at least when i do the questions, im studying. and absorbing.
that's jem's logic but it worked for me all this while!

i cant wait for next week though! joanne's birthday dinner to look forward to, and a crazy night on fri with louey!! cause we both end exams and the best part is i have no teaching on sat! so i can stay out without having worrying about waking up the next day.

i have no idea where we're gonna go, only what
we're gonna be drinking dancing drinking dancin drinking dancing drinking dancing. yippee!

maybe we'll both pick someone up, no? haha kidding.

louey and i will prob stay at each others' hse so we can look after each other. though of course my vips will know very well who will be taking care of who. damn man... i need u guys! haha

and i negotiated with my mummy, and i'll get my electric guitar next month! yippee..
i'll prob spend hours in my room tryin to do guns and roses impersonation. haha
i'm no rocker, but no harm playing right? no audience to witness anyway.

it might seem sad that only clubbing seems to bring on a high right now, but it's not clubbing, it's the company and the fun.
it's good to have fun.
and i'm happy when i'm having fun.
and we must all seek happinesS!

ok sorry crazy now.
sigh.
off to school now....