Currently feeling: Tired. Just very tired.

Had a gruelling session of piano today .. the first of many to prepare me for my recital dip in May/June... and right now, everything my eyes fall upon are decorated with all the music notes....... I feel cross-eyed...

I feel so worried about my exam..my fingers dont seem to run the way i need them to...

my school upcoming exams are in march and londno exams in may... ok i'm not that worried to the extent to start studying yet.. I dont know I feel so weird sometimes.. why cant I be like normal people who go to school and study consistently...hmm... my mind works best when there's only a limited period of like a few days.... other than that.. my attention span is almost non-existent... WHY WHY TELL ME WHY.

but at least during the times when it is existent my concentration is 100% and I remember what I do!

that's my little comfort. Just allow me to glorify it for a while.

This week's shedule is pretty packed.. Let's see...

Mon: Met Deb for dinner at sakae and drinks at indochine later... where I was staring at the lead singer cum guitarist and fantasizing... not about him... but about being him... haha..

Tues: singing crazily with zi, zen and bro at partyworld.. I laughed so hard at one time... my stomach hurt.. but it's been eons since I actually had this feeling.... I havent laughed that hard in ages...

Wed: Took a day off from school.. Caught the show Alfie... too much self reflection.. way too much... can relate to him... too much too...

Thurs: Just piano. I need some time off.

Fri: Extra lessons in school which I am going to attend so I can enjoy basketball later on without feeling that guilty..

I had a packed social life right now, and I have a shit academic life. But soon, it's going to be reversed.

After all, everything is ephemeral.