The 2nd of Jan came all too soon.

But at least there's the comfort that we really made sacrifces and effort to spend quality time with each other.

Plus the last night we had with each other. And the last night we'll ever have with each other for a long time to come. Or maybe forever.

But this past month or so has been more than I ever deserved.

Someone up there really likes me. Because I'm always getting repeated opportunities that I let slipped before.

So I fervently thank that someone up there.

9.05pm tonight.

And then everything is going to be ..pardon my language.... fucking uncertain.

Heavy heart... the tears arent even coming.

God give me strength.