Ramble.....rambling........

History was on my side when it mattered but my ignorance got in the way. Now that all's been said and done, history is not on my side anymore. You get trapped in its irreversibility.

I should just ward myself in the cardiology department of the hospital.
Symptoms: B***** H****ed ouch.
Diagnosis: Confusion at its deepest degree.

Cant live with, yet cant live without. You get caught in a tug of war like that, its a lose-lose situation.

The best things come disguised, and sometimes you get so intoxicated with inferior complexities that you never really searched for answers, and dont we all know that the universal rule is that we dont often see what is right in front of our faces? And when we finally do, the time you took to let it sink in, that's what happens, it remains sunken.

And havent we always questioned ourselves with the suffering 'what I should do is not what I want to do'. You have to make that decision, but sometimes the decision has already been made a very long time ago. But myopic me, or disillusioned me, never really had to worry over it until now, when series of incidents or words make you snap and wake up.

oh whatever. I shall just inject myself with anesthetic and let my mind perform the operation.

Rambled.