Everyone faces confusion along the chosen route they have undertaken periodically. But sometimes, possessing a knowledge that disarrangement is not a minority problem doesnt not erase that just because one million other people can empathise with how you feel, your reaction to this is just to shrug your shoulders and go 'so what'.

Sigh. I think I'm just in one of those melancholic moods due to mental exhaustion. Sometimes I wish the driver of my brain train will just pause along the tracks for a while and let the exhaust cool and the engine to revive again. You know how it is, at nights, when you should be in a peaceful slumber, but although you body is dead to the world, your mind hasnt stopped working.

And this leads to really strange dreams.

But on a lighter note, I've had several dreams where I am saving people! And fighting with monsters! I checked it out on the dream dictionary and it says that I have hidden qualities which I would like people to know and I have a thirst to prove myself in the face of danger and I deal with my problems by fighting against it. Wow.. I feel like a superhero. SPIDEY! ahhaa here we go again...

I'm giving out economics flyers again at unearthly hours, and this has severly disrupted my biological clock! Sigh. Plus I have a piano recital this Sunday and I'm not ready. I'll be hitting all the wrong notes.. *gloomy look*
Year 2 has started this week too. But instead of the usual refreshed determination and new goals one usually has when a new semester starts, I feel nothing. In fact, it only increases my sense of displacement. Because my year 1 results will only be out at the end of Aug, and I have no confidence is getting a pass. Therefore, I'm left hanging. I feel like a lost sheep.... sigh.
I dont know what I'll do if I dont pass. I dont deserve to anyway. But I am really praying for divine intervention.
And I'll deal with it when it comes. Superhero remember....