Caught up in a vortex of swirling emotions....

They say when you allow yourself to penetrate wholly into a situation, you entrap yourself in the gamut of emotions that threaten to spiral out of control. And even if you pride yourself in disciplining your senses, your supervision can go awry.

And then you start to wonder if apathy is a solution. Perhaps it cannot be the answer, for one must always strike the balance between penetration and indifference. But when it comes to feelings, it gets so complex, so labyrinthine, that you can just screw up completely.

You then find yourself at the crossroads, asking the dreaded question that we all face every now and then. You know what should be done, but it opposes what you want. That tug of war.

I feel so..............

Sometimes when I look into the mirror, I dislike what I see. Because I see that frown, those worry lines, that surly mouth. Yet other times I see that sparkle, that dimple, but those times are getting rarer by the second.

The patience that's wearing thin, the intolerance....and especially that temper that blows up ever so often..

What kind of !@#$%^ have I turned into?