Prayer for Day 19
Dear Lord, Please bring your peace and help me out of this

I belong somewhere, I'm just not home yet.

The emission of first light, is when melancholy hits the hardest, and the languishing of last light is when the potency of peace emerges in its peak.
It is reasonably presumed that the first rays depict a new beginning, and the last rays interprete a closure of the day, yet our emotions sometimes differ from what is conventionally assumed. I guess it all depends on the situation. after all, if you have gone through an exhausting day, sunset portrays the much anticiapted rest, and if you dread the embarkment of the following day, sunrise will be accompanied by trepidation of the events to come. My weighing scales on this matter would be balanced, the awaiting for the new day is mixed with fear, mixed emotions which change as each minute ticks, yet constant while it lasts. I'm just experiencing stable flutuations.
Sometimes I look at myself in consternation, yet other times I feel unassailable. It seems as though I am a lost sheep wandering about in the greenest pastures, contented, until the sense of displacement begins it haunting.
And maybe this lack of self control in life is in my control, maybe I just have to be strong enough. But I dont know how.

Had 2 of my examinations so far.. Contract and Criminal.. the latter definitely was better... due to..uh.. unexpected help. ha.. Tomorrow's exam is going to be a goner. I feel like taking flight and call in sick! But yes I know.. it's running away... but I really am very very tempted to do that.. will it be wrong if i do? I'm going to fail!!!!

And Mich is back.. thank goodness..