JEM IS HOME

I'm happy to be home, but I didnt want it to fade, I needed the dream like escapism to pace on, although I know I live in reality.

The bangkok trip was much better than I expected, due to the interference of Fate.

Cant put my finger exactly where it should be.

Random thoughts, many thoughts.. thinking of the same thing over and over again. Yet, I smile. Sad smile.

Dont know what right and wrong is.

Maintain self control.

Scattered ramblings...

Cant put words to how I feel

Did I mention I feel lost?

Significant song. Can relate to it.
Behind Blue eyes-- Limp Bizkit
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

NO one knows what it's like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

Hidden track(I wish)
All the clouds oh they're gray
I'll stay if you never go away
Concrete, tall as the sky
Movement passing me by
And the blush what a rush
Reminice
Cold crush
Next door, ear to the wall
All the tension, wait for the call

I wish I wish I wish
it was all that easy...