I'm a solitary person, so fuck off and leave me alone.

why does she always have to ruin things? Just when I thought things were smoother, sense of deja vu crashes back in again and hurls me back to the nightmare that I've been living in. She's right, I've changed, I'm heartless, and I dont give a damn about anyone anymore. But I've built my fortress, and no enemies are gonna do an invasion and destroy me all over again. I've had enough of that shit, cant she see that. All the expectations and demands, it has already taken its toll, and turned me into a jerk. But I dont give a shit.
Because of her, I'm too afraid of relationships, too tired of the effort, dont give a fuck about other's feelings. They said no one can change you but yourself, but she changed me, and yes I know, it's up to myself to change back. But not now. WHATEVER>
Last Christmas was bad enough, dont step into my life and mess things up all over again. I just want to be alone.
Mr Jem is Mr Nice no more.

THE WORLD DOESNT HATE ME, BUT I HATE IT.
I'll just keep telling myself that many more people have it worse, just need time huh.