The puppet's legs are free to kick and struggle or even run, but its hands remain tied..

I apprehend that I have a vast amount of resentment stored in this reservoir of feelings, and they arent going to go anytime soon. I know for my sake, it is for the best to let go of such enmity for all it does is grow into colossal bile of bitterness, for me, and not anyone else to taste. But I cannot release it, it is a prisoner in my dungeon- all I can do is let it remain in hibernation mode, let it be dormant and when or if it explodes, I can only hope the eruption will result in no fatalites or injuries, but instead bury the past, and I will use the volcanic ash to grow my flowers again.

Why does it appear as though every beautiful night we have together has an ending the very next day? Why does it seem like every happy moment shared has to be marred and tarnished by overshadows? Why is it that it's my life yet I am reluctantly dominated? And why do all the answers to these questions lie with me yet I cant comprehend the absurdity of it all....

Last night, this morning.
Body against body, connected souls. A hopeless romantic? No.. just sincere words.

I cant ask you to wait. And I dont expect anything, and I know it's mutual. I cant predict the future yes.. I might end up happy. You were right.
But how can I feel something for someone when my thoughts and heart and everything is with you. This was confirmed yesterday. Whatever I felt, I still feel.There's no turning back for me now.. I'm just pulled sideways by no choice of mine. But you know I am always looking at you. I love you.

Baby, I'm sorry.

I know it's hard believing
the words you've heard before,
but darling you must trust them just once more.

Baby goodbye.. doesnt mean forever..
let me tell you goodbye.. doesnt mean we'll never be together again
If you wake up and I'm not there,
I wont be long away.
Cause the things you do my goodbye girl
will bring me back to you....
Song: goodbye girl by david gates.

Lately.. something here dont feel right..
This is just a half life
without you I am breaking down..
o wake me.. I wanna see the daylight
save me from this half life...
let's you and i escape... escape from time..