I've been clinging onto all sorts of escapes, procrastinating for as long as possible before facing this calamitous day. But the time has come for me to turn around now.

Splinters of what we had and fragments of conversation crowd around me as I sit here, garnering the will that I will need later, when I face what I have been dreading and say the wretched words. How do I tell her that what we had survives only in the past, and not the present. How do I say that we are not one but two? How do I turn around and walk away, and experience a certain sadness so physically tangible that once again I just want to fly away.
I pray that Lord will give us strength to do what we have to do.

I've been listening to the song 'The voice within' by Christina Aguilera. Very very meaningful.
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants to bother to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
Be strong,You'll break it
Hold on You'll make it
Just don't go forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can do
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you