deja vu ...A wants to break up. B does not want to. B has no choice but to let A go right? She should love B enough to let go right? NO. B doesnt have a choice. Even if B does not love enough, she has no alternative but to go. So stop making it seem like it's a fucking gift and A should owe B something. Yes, A feels bad. A feels responsible. A doesnt know how to forgive herself. and i'm fucking A.

suddenly, my past is crashing on me again. I need you I need you I need you..

what's written below is lesson number 4.

" .. You died. You were the best person anyone of us knew, and you died and lost everything. And I lost everything..."
" No, you didnt. I was right here. .. Lost love is still love. . It takes a different form, that's all. You cant see their smile... But when those esnses weaken, another heightens. Memory. memory becomes your partner. You nuture it. You hold it. You dance with it.. Life has to end. Love doesnt."