It hasnt sunk in yet.

But before it sinks in, I have prepared myself.. going to recite all the past advice I have bestowed upon others before. Look towards the sun and your shadows fall behind. There are many fishes in the sea. Be strong. Stay tough. The list goes on and on and on. But perhaps what would be the most helpful advice would be time heals all wounds. Yep.. it does. problem is, the scars remain forever. Therefore, once more, it is all up to me again. No cliches to lessen the burden, no verbal affection to decrease the.... whatever words are appropriate. But I'm prepared.

Celebrated Louey's birthday today.. had lots of fun. Although Candy was in another continent, it's ok.. she was in our hearts and part of our conversation too. We gave her a huge bean bag.. haha.. but today was great. one of the best days i have had in a long time.

outward tears can be wiped away, but silent ones scar forever. I know that too. BUt for now, please let me be and let me stay silent. But words are words; I never did hear/ That the bruised heart was pieced through the ear