I want to be like refined wine.. where the older you get, the more mature and tasteful you become,, instead of being like just a normal soda..where you remain puerile.. or even worse... deteriorate. So, all my experiences, I shall put them in a positive light, and know that I am on my way in getting where I want to be.This is the art of positive thinking.


"...can do it... it just takes a little more faith" "it takes more practice" "faith takes practice".

ok that was just a little extract from the book that I am currently reading.. called 'A prayer for Owen' lent to me by Cheryl. Anyway, thought the phrase highlighted in bold was rather intriguing. The last few days when i was regurgitating all the admonition and advice upon myself, i kept telling myself to have faith. When i read the book, I realised that hey.. faith doesnt come just like that.. so.. I am going to have faith.. or rather.. I'm gonna practise to have faith. I think we all should learn. It's really a trait. and it's not negative.
Some casual words of comfort passed my way last night.. things have a funny way of working out. well.. bearing this in mind with addition to faith, soon i shall be on my way to savour the fact that one day.. I shall be able to relinquish the detrimentals in me.....

You know, I think it's almost uncanny.. and almost hypocritical, how one's body can be at a certain place, yet the heart is far away.. in a fantasy like trance. I have always had a firm conviction in whole-heartedness, and honesty.. and the above contrasts against my beliefs. But i realise that maybe when it happens, it isnt a question about ethics, nor is it a question of choice. Perhaps sometimes you just have to be a some place though you dont want to... but perhaps if your soul is where u want to be..........

I want to dwell with you in my fantasies, though I know I have to wake up sometime... but maybe in time.. fantasies come true.... and you will be mine.....
then i shall kiss you.. and kiss you .. and kiss you... and kiss you...