A big thank you to Joanne, Cheryl and MIchele for yesterday.
My birthday celebration pictures with the 3 of them are up! :) Anyway, I simply do not know how to express how happy you guys have made me... yeah.. thanks for holding the dinner for me.. taking the trouble to get the presents.. I'm really sorry if I left you guys dry! yeah...and Mich, this is absolutely the first time somebody took the trouble to bake me a cake!! was so touched... haha ahem.. ok very paiseh now.. mk sure ur egos dont get too inflated huh? haha but seriously, Thank You...

Things do get better... and I am glad that although along this seemingly endless journey there has been so many fluctuating emotions involved, it seems like finally.... for once.. I get a tinge of plenary sense of self worth and happiness... I'm still afraid of many thoughts, and what may eventually happen again.. but maybe I should try to stop focusing on how bad it might turn again and concentrate on how good it might be... and I'm not going to set my alarm at 5 anymore...ok.. i'm sorry if you cant follow this.. Im kinda like just putting my thoughts into words right now..
But you know, in their own little ways, things do change.. and sometimes they do change for the better... and I think I have it in me to start believing in the world again.


The night spent with you is etched in my memory... and engraved in my heart......